Another short update

Today is the beginning of the fasting month and after one month, the Muslim will celebrate Hari Raya. I can go back to my liver diet again as there will not be anymore office lunches.

Right now, work is very busy. It's always like this before any international pujas. There are bound to have some maya that we have to go through somehow. I am just surrendering it to the Divine.

In the past few days, I have been emotionally affected. I am not sure what it is but it disturbed me until I have funny dreams. Maybe because it's new moon, which I feel has an effect on me. And when I become weak, my left agnya immediately gets affected and that's when I get funny dreams. This makes me tired and then unable to meditate properly. It's like a cycle and usually I can only break this cycle during the weekend when I have enough of rest. OK, no more justifications. Must break this cycle whenever I can by waking up earlier to meditate and having proper meditation in the evening. Best to start off is to sleep early. Not tonight though, have a practice for our performance in Cabella.

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Have you look at Shri Mataji's bindi before?

The red dot on Her forehead? We looked at Her beautiful face a lot but how often do we look at Her bindi? Past few days have been a struggle for me to get by. I can't seem to think properly and having a tough time trying to rationalise and be balance. It's not because of the recent happenings. It has been accumulating from many, many nights before that. Attention was all over the place. I lost control of myself. I don't know what I want to do. I don't know how to move on. I felt a little lost. I think and think and think. I tired myself out and finally declared that it's fatigue. Last night, decided to pull myself together. Sat in front of Shri Mataji's photo and just looked at Her big, round red bindi. At first it was difficult. Eyes wandering. Then after some time, it was much better. I managed to focus. That's when a realisation came to me and I got all the answers fo...

Matka pot treatment - Night 1

I started the matka pot treatment last night. Been feeling a lot of left agnya catch lately, so thought that it is high time to do a matka pot treatment. Here is what we need: 7 limes (I heard in Belgium, they used 7 lemons, so the pot that they used is so big and they have a hard time trying to dispose the pot after the 7 nights). Cut the top of the limes to expose a bit of the flesh. 7 chillies. Remove the top of the chillies (I don't know what you call, stem or stalk). I used small chillies so that they can fit into the matka pot. 1 matka pot (here in Malaysia we used claypot that they cooked claypot rice, glazed inside so that it will not leak) Vibrated water So, you put everything into the pot and vibrate in front of Shri Mataji's photo. Pray that the matka pot will absorb all the catches and negativities. Then place it on the left side of the bed. I put it under the bed but you can also put it on a side table on ...

Morning Prayer

Shri Mataji, May I this day, be what You want me to be, May I this day, say what You want me to say, May I this day, be part and parcel of the whole, And may my thoughts be of a realised soul, May I this day, have love for all mankind, Shri Mataji, please be in my heart and in my mind.

Jai Jai Jai Shri Mataji

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