Jai Jai Jai Shri Mataji

I was having some aches and pains and was googling to find out what is wrong with me because I was too lazy to go to the doctor.  Turns out, most of the websites I went diagnosed me with stress. As I read further, I found out that most of these so-called diseases are incurable.  Medication can only control the symptoms but not eliminate it entirely.  And most website recommends a change in lifestyle. I blogged about GERD .  Most doctors gave me antacid to stop the heart burn and the uncomfortable feeling in the stomach.  Antacid doesn't taste nice and it leaves a bad aftertaste in the mouth.  And it only helped to control the symptoms but doesn't prevent the acid from coming up in the future. Thereafter, I read up on a few more diseases, i.e Irritable Bowel Syndrome, Cirrhosis, Hemorrhoids, Diabetes,  Fatty Liver etc, etc.  If you read about them, you will find the best method to heal from it, is to change your lifestyle, well, except...

So, I made an impromptu trip to China.  At first, I thought since we have 2 days of public holiday here and if I take 3 days off, I get 1 week holiday.  Besides, it was Diwali and I wanted to spend Diwali with my husband.  But turns out, the whole trip was meant to happen and it was all part of Divine's plan. When I arrived, I was getting irritated at China and its surroundings again.  The next day I bounced back to reality and realised I was being too complex.  Life is so simple in Foshan and as Chinese saying goes by, 'Got rice eat rice, got porridge eat porridge.'  They live day by day to the best of their means.  So, I began to accept the surroundings and the people and learning how to adapt with the changes and the environment. This trip was so spontaneous and it turns out as if everything was planned.  In fact, it was so good that it feels as if I have planned this months ago and how everything fell into place.  This makes me l...

I started out this blog, wanting to share all the lovely Sahaja Yoga experiences with the whole world.  It went well, the first few posts, until year 2008. Then what I noticed was, a lot of posts were trying to convince myself that I am on the right track.  I felt sorry for myself, victimising and sometimes rambling about worldly problems. Now, it's 4 years since 2008 and many times I told myself to write only happy things.  So that anyone who reads them are happy as well.  I tried to dig my memories of all the beautiful, lovely experiences that I had.  But it seems to be running thin. Sometimes I wonder, how come some people can be so optimistic and always looking at the bright side?  But I can't seem to do that? I don't want to give up on this.  I don't want to turn the blog into something depressing.  I wondered myself, have I become more and more ungrateful towards whatever I have?  Or, I am asking too much and expecting a lot? ...

Wish everyone here a Happy Diwali!  May all of you have a great time with your loved ones! Diwali Greetings Orkut Greetings

On 2nd September 2010, the moment that I have been waiting for has finally arrived.  It was during one of the evening programs for the World Festivals, in Cabella that my name was finally announced.  A sense of relieve gushed through me and finally, I got it! Two months earlier, I have submitted the marriage application form.  From that day onwards, life was like a roller coaster.  Lots of thoughts.  'What if...??'   I thought I have prepared myself mentally, but when it comes right through it, I realised preparation was merely a word to comfort myself. I was excited and yet nervous.  I was happy and yet anxious.  The two months of anticipation of the event was much more bigger than anything that I had ever encountered.  Although I hid my emotions from the outside world, because it was a secret and I was too shy to announced, yet inside I was having a nervous breakdown every now and then. On my birthday that year, I received ...

Wow, this blog is already 6 years old.  How time flies.  I enjoyed readying back the old blog posts, brings back so much of nice memories, especially those Sahaj related and also reminded me to go back to basics sometimes and watch that Ego. Reading my experiences, reminded me of my journey in Sahaj.  Started out being ignorant, then started to recognised Shri Mataji, began to observe protocols, attended various international pujas, met Shri Mataji personally, performed for Her and got the opportunities to offer gifts to Her.  Then became really into Sahaj, everything Sahaj this, Sahaj that and recognised other things which are non-Sahaj is not good, etc. Also, back then, so much more innocent, and so many miracles happened.  I took it for granted, forgetting everything.  Who would have guess, Dr. Madhu Rai was the person who tied sari for me during one international puja?  Interesting right? Looking back, I started the blog with lots of h...

My husband taught me a few things in life.  Some are quite valuable, so I thought I better write it down somewhere.  Sometimes, the more people advises me, the more I can't seem to follow through.  The best for me is learning through experience and this is his experience.  Anyway, all these were already spoken by Shri Mataji.   The first is if you have spoken the truth to another person, but if that person still want to be ignorant and do not want to accept the truth, then just leave it.  You are blessed to know the truth and have compassion for that person who does not. The second was to have pure desire.  Pure desire work better if the desire is for another person, for the betterment of that person.  I read a beautiful talk by Babamama, Shri Mataji's brother here , and it is exactly how my husband experienced.  He desired something for another person and that person got what he wants.  So, I realised that I always desire for m...