Jai Jai Jai Shri Mataji

世界上 只有 一个人 才 能 分享 你的 所有 ， 那个 人 是 老公 。

I asked my husband jokingly whether he can gift me a mobile phone for Christmas and I was very surprised when he immediately said YES!   I asked him whether he was sure and again he said YES, and suggested to research the net to see which one to buy.  From surprise to elated, I was so happy that he agreed so fast without hesitation. So, the conversation was on Whatsapp and in Chinese and I was using Navita Translator to translate. Turns out I wrote  手机绳  instead of  手机  and the former means mobile phone strap. No wonder he said YES so fast!

I woke up at 5 this morning and meditated.  It was a good feeling.  A sister in Sahaj just came back from the Sahaja Yoga Health Centre in Delhi and shared her experiences with me.  She learn how to meditate from the doctors there.  So she taught me how to do it, the right way. Teaching one to meditate is not easy because it's internal and an experience that individual feels differently.  Meditation takes practice.   I started using the method she taught how to meditate last night and found it was really good.  It was simple,  yet not that easy to accomplish.  What we need to do is to put our attention on Sahasrara all the time and watch the attention, ensure no thoughts and bring ourselves to balance by just putting attention on Sahasrara. What I noticed for myself is that my attention is running like a wild horse.  Moving from left to right.  From thoughts of what had happened to thoughts of what I am going to do next...

"Now because you are realised souls, not yet the Spirit – it has not yet come into your brain of course, but still you are realised souls. So what you can do is at least to watch your attention. You can do that, you can watch your attention very clearly by seeing where your attention is going. And then, controlling your attention also you can do. Very simple. To control your attention you have to just remove your attention from this to that. Try to change your priorities, all this has to be done Now, after realisation, a complete detachment." Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi,  1983-07-16

How nice! I am on leave, have leisure time everyday, doing everything at my own sweet time, have money to spent, sleep and eat only, doing clearing and meditation at my own pace. No rush, just enjoying every moment being in the present with my husband. How nice if everyday also like this!

Attended a conference on Friday. One of the speakers is a prominent guy who assists the Prime Minister in his planning. He is an excellent speaker. Spoke very well. He told how to improve business and gave the 6 secrets. Guess what's the 6th secret? He called it 'Divine Intervention'. While I feel his speech was indirectly touching on political issues and praising his boss, when he spoke on the last secret, suddenly I feel we have the same understanding. I feel success comes to those who believe in God. Earlier I believed that success also comes to those who are loyal to their spouse but lately I realised there are way too many people cheating on their spouse and yet very successful in life, though may not be happy. By saying believing in God doesn't mean merely going to places of worship and praying to God for money, fame, power and asking God to solve our problems. I feel believing in God have a subtle meaning. That we believe there is a much higher po...

I was just told that this year is a very auspicious Diwali for me as it is my first year being married.  However, it would have been nicer if he is with me, but he is far, far away.  I spent the Diwali doing my oil bath while he was busy working because it's not a holiday in China.  Sigh. Many non-Sahajis asked me how do I maintain a long distance relationship?  My answer:  It takes a lot of determination, patience, trust and lots of love.  It is very important for a marriage to have communication.  I always find ways to connect with him, be it vibrationally or not.  Here is what we do to keep in contact: 1. Skype - We started out using Skype, which was the most awesome video calls software.  It makes everything so convenient and brings people from very far to very near.  We see each other through webcam and sometimes we type out our chats.  It was really very convenient. 2. Google Talk - I introduced him to Google Talk...

I was disgusted with the amount of cruelty happening all over the world, be it on animals, children, men or women.  The news were too painful to hear or see.  I asked, when will Kali Yuga ends?  And then I stumble upon this Shri Mataji's talk.  Immediately I feel like Shri Mataji talking to me and telling me what to do.  Thank You, Mother! Witness It is a very important thing about the power of Shri Krishna that gives you a witness state. This is very important also because, in these days of Kali Yuga  and complete confusion of value system, all kinds of turmoil makes very complex conditions to exist. The state of witnessing is only possible through meditation: you reach the state of thoughtless awareness. It’s combined together. Now the witness state is such a state where you just do not react. If you react, then the problem starts. It’s a very simple thing to understand that we react through our ego or through our conditioning. Otherwise there is no...

Diwali  1976 My dear Sahaja Yogis, my dear children Let this  Diwali  enlighten you with light of love. You yourself are the lamps which burn high and don't get pressed by the cover. They become much more powerful than the cover. It is their own asset. When they are hit upon, they are disturbed and distinguished. Why are our lamps disturbed? You should think it over. Is there no transparent sheath around them? Have your forgotten your Mother's love and therefore you are so disturbed? As the glass protects the lamp, in the same way my love will protect you. But the glass should be kept clean. How can I explain? Have I to say like Shri Krishna 'Leave all religions and surrender to me' or as Shri Jesus 'I am the way, I am the door'. I want to tell you that I am that destination. But will you people accept it? Will this fact go to your hearts? Although what I say is distorted, the truth will always stand. You cannot change what it is. Only you will rema...

This was taught by Shri Mataji. Soak black raisins in orange juice in the morning and drink at night before sleeping. I find the effects from this treatment is better than any medicine that I had used so far. If the hemorrhoids already inflamed, don't expect the treatment to take immediate effects. Don't give up and continue drinking this. It's really effective. Proven and tested and cheap! I think I am going to drink this every day now. Also I do this treatment together with clearing of the right mooladhara. Works very well. -- Sent from my mobile device

It's a beautiful day today!  It had rained the whole night and now the air is fresh....until my neighbour started smoking.  Anyway, these beautiful mogra flowers greet me this morning.  The fragrance is so sweet like nectar.   God created many beautiful things.  If only we open our hearts to them we will be able to feel them, see them, smell them, touch them and enjoy them.   Unfortunately, humans are very well-trained to look for mistakes as well.  Sometimes we only see the negative things that happened and miss all the wonderful things that nature had provided for us.   So, today, let's enjoy all the beautiful things around us.  The sun, the sky, the air.  The flowers, the dog, the nature.  Let's forget about all those bad things.  Don't read news for a day.  Just enjoy being in the present with all these beautiful things surrounding us.   Thank You, Shri Adi Shakti, for creating all these beautif...

On this day, 10 years ago, the World Trade Center in New York were attacked by terrorists.  Many people lost their lives.  I remember watching the live event on TV and was feeling devastated.  Watching the suicide on live TV was too much.  10 days later in 2001, I went to attend the first international puja in Cabella, thanks to a Sahaj brother for his generosity.  It was also during that time, I became the bride's maid for a Sahaj sister.  It was my first time attending a Sahaj wedding and it was very memorable. On this day, a year ago, my life took a beautiful turn.  Communication with my husband officially started and he proves to be a gentlemen and a guy full of virtues.  I prayed for a good Sahaja Yogi and sure enough, I got one.  He is a very simple and spiritual man. Today, we are officially married (well at least in China we are)!  Status changed.  Every time I wear the mangal sutra, I feel vibrations.  I feel ...

I am back to Malaysia after a beautiful spiritual wedding in Cabella and a traditional and customary wedding in China.  I was away for 2 weeks and the most beautiful 2 weeks ever.  Shri Mataji was looking after us, every moment, every second, every way, every path and She arranges everything for us right from the beginning and exactly what I had dreamt before, that She is the One who oversees everything, that She is the Doer and Enjoyer!!! I will load some photos later, when I am much fresher.  I am very tired now but feel so blissful and blessed.  The most amazing moment was when he tied the mangal sutra around my neck, the vibrations were just raising from the mooladhara right to the sahasrara.  I could feel the kundalini going up right through the sahasrara and surrounded by beautiful vibrations. Such a blessing from Shri Mataji.  Although there were chaotic moments, reaction moments, disagreement moments....but all those just wiped off by the m...

Tomorrow is Guru Puja.  It's time to read some excerpts on Guru Puja. THE LOVE WITHIN But today is the day when we are celebrating the Guru Puja. The greatest Guru that we have is Love. Sahaj Love is the Guru within us which teaches us, it somehow or other leads us. We are lead into that great line of understanding, for which we don’t have to go to any college, to any school for education. It is something so much within that it works and expresses itself, expresses like a light. Such people we can make out because they are fully enlightened. They have light and through that light they see the whole world which is very innocent and simple for them. We have love for our children naturally, we have love for our parents naturally. We have love for some people, but that love is different from God’s Love, I’m telling you, that has some connections, some meanings but this Love which is - cannot be described in words, has to be felt within. Same, when you talk of your Guru, y...

We were still very excited about our diet and so here's our Day 2 diet.  It's good if the cook does the diet with you, then it is so much easier. Breakfast 2 half boiled egg Papaya Lunch Vegetable pau Salad Snack Papaya Dinner Rice Plain chicken (not fried) Steamed salty vegetable with chicken Watermelon Besides that, a Sahaja Yogini sister gave me a recipe for detox, to be done together with this liver diet.  I just did the combination and drank it.  Was suppose to drink it in the morning, but my mom said we may have to go to toilet often, so better drink at night. It's a mixture of half cup warm water with one whole lemon juice with 1 tbsp of molasses sugar, 1/2 tsp of olive oil and a dash of cayenne pepper. Let's see what happens.

My mom and I decided to start liver diet few days ago.  She wants to lose weight before the wedding and I want to have better attention.  So, yesterday was our first day.  It is easier to do a diet when there is someone accompanying you, especially if she is the cook for the family. Although we are not keeping to the strict liver diet, but we are eating more vege and fruits.  She still cooks with oil, oyster sauce, soya sauce, etc.  She said food will be tasteless without these.  Strict liver diet says no or little oil, no sauces, preferably as bland as possible. Here's our first day liver diet (not strictly though): Breakfast Chee Cheong Fun (rice noodles with sweet sauce and some chilli) Coconut water Lunch Wholemeal bread with egg (microwaved, not fried, therefore no oil) Pineapple Snack Chickpeas (blanched) Dinner Rice Steamed chicken with lotus root Green vegetables Papaya That's Day 1.  So far, I find my attention has been goo...

My husband is a simple man.  I think I have a lot to learn from him.  I am actually not in the mood to write.  Many things happened in the past few days and totally drained me emotionally.  All the emotions were so mixed up that I felt like a 'rojak' person.   I was unhappy and could not find a way to get out of it.  So, I vented to my husband and thought he would side me and agree with me.  After hearing my story, instead of siding anyone, he told me just live life simply, don't be so complicated, then I will be happier.  I really admire that.  It woke me up immediately and my heart immediately relieved and I was feeling joyful again.  He was right, if I were less complicated, many things would have been different.  Besides, I feel many people around me are complicated which is why all these complications arise.    Anyway, now and then I will be reminded of what happened and I really don't like it.  Aft...

Once in a while, a word or two will cross my mind.  It will flash through my mind and I will type it in the search box in Gmail to look for Shri Mataji's speech containing that word and will read about it.  Maybe it's introspection, maybe just something that is happening in my life at that point of time. As you can see the title above, this word had appeared in my mind very often recently.  What happened was I see more people becoming very artificial.  Not only the behaviour or character but also the external, especially women.   To be beautiful, many women resorted to artificiality.  I didn't know about this until recently got introduced into the makeup industry.  Yes, makeup can transform a person.  If you have a low nose bridge, then some colour will make it higher.  If you looked pale, some blusher will pink you up.  If you have single eye-lid, a sticker can create double eye-lids.  If you have too big lips, some lip-li...

Today I was amazed at how strong and powerful a woman can be.  No, I am not talking about lifting heavy weights or doing abnormal stunts.  I am talking about the internal stuff, the nourishing factor, the motherly love, the enduring it all.  Shri Mataji has mentioned that woman should be like Mother Earth, how She endured all on Herself and keep on giving and giving. "Now, when you get married to your husbands, try to understand that you are the Mother Earth, and you have to give.  And because you have powers, you can give.  Because you have so many Shaktis within you, you have to give." - Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi, date unknown. I used to have many friends who were getting married.  Now I have many friends who are pregnant.  From the amazing stories I heard about carrying a child to full-term, to losing a baby due to miscarriage, to doing so many daily things while still taking care of the husband and to keep on giving love.  They have to...

41 years ago, on this day, in 1970, Shri Mataji opened the 7th chakra, i.e Sahasrara.  With this, it opened the pathway for the Kundalini to rise, for emancipation of mankind, for true seekers to meet at the Kingdom of God and for spiritual evolution.  Shri Mataji, thank You for giving us a second birth.  Read Shri Mataji's explanation of what She saw when that happened: "So when the time came when the necessity was so great that the necessity itself brought forth Sahaja Yoga. And it happened that I really saw the  Sahasrara . Of course you know there’s a difference between your  Sahasrara  and mine. And I saw the  Sahasrara , opened out beautifully and the petals were just like flames - rounded flames, rounded ones, rounded beautifully colored flames of different colors. That’s why I wore today blouse of many colors and sari of many colors. I saw so many permutations and combinations, so beautiful. And as if every petal was individually, absolu...

I have been wanting to blog for a few days, but just can't get myself to do it.  I wanted to put more photos, especially those recently captured photos, but I have lost the cable and now unable to load any new photos. Past few days, has been eye-opening days for me.  I have discovered a few new things, well, some not that new, but it's still something that makes me see with my eyes instead of just hearing or imagining or whatever. First, I realised that, many times, the main thing that is stopping me from ascending, is my ego.  It's not something new though.  It's been there.  I see it on and off, but sometimes don't recognise it.  Now I see it more in the witness state and watching the drama, where I am the main actress.  It's the main hindrance in anything that I do. The best part (and I mean it) is that I know where this is coming from.  It's been there for ages, ingrown in the system, encouraged by the society and now it's not easy to...

Past few months, I have been taking a break from Sahaj music.  I felt there were too many things on my plate.  These are the activities on my agenda: Learn mandarin Finish cross stitch (x10) for my new room Move room, arrange, decorate, etc Prepare for registration of marriage Wedding planning The big bulk of to-do comes from wedding planning.  Besides working full-time and having to face the oncoming restructuring which complicates matter and having to deal with lots of red tape, I told myself, enough is enough.  Not putting anymore things on my plate. Recently my life have been very busy.  Mainly having to deal with other people and not my own things, accommodating to other people's needs and doing things for other people.   At first, I agree to do it.  I don't know how to say NO.  Then it began to weigh down on me and putting a burden in my day-to-day life that I felt paralysed for waiting for other people's decisions, instructions, w...

Yeah, the title is not that great.  Ever since I got matched to a Chinese guy from China, this word has been popping out a lot more frequent and I realised that we do have a lot of discrimination against a lot of people, whether we know it or not. I am a third generation of Chinese origin, born in Malaysia.  In another words, I am Chinese but a Malaysian.  Growing up in Malaysia, we mingled with other races a lot, especially the Malays and Indians.  Everyday in our life, in one way or another, we have to deal with them, whether it is paying to an Indian cashier or ordering from a Malay waiter or getting Chinese credit card sales rep bugging you, to us Malaysians, seeing another race is very common. We do have some racial differences which I feel we should all appreciate and understand each other's culture and tradition instead of discriminating. At my work, I have Indian and Malay colleagues, as well as Chinese colleagues.  We work together, share our differe...