To err is human, to forgive Divine

Something happened and my faith in Shri Mataji elevated again.  We are so blessed to be in Divine's attention because we are Sahaja Yogis.  Shri Mataji has always protected us right from the beginning.

I never truly understood the word 'Maya' until now.  Even then, I may not understand the whole picture completely.  God is great!  His actions may not be understood or decoded by anyone.  But in the end, it's all God's will and it's for our ascent.

Without going too much detail into it, here's what it is.

Since 1st Jan this year, there has been some misunderstanding between my hubby and another party.   Verbal abuses and harsh words were thrown at him.  There was a huge quarrel and argument.  Although it ended peacefully, somehow I felt there were undercurrents.  Since that day, I prayed to Shri Mataji, please don't let me go through this again and just let us live in peace.

Sure enough, when there were subsequent disagreements and arguments, we were always not there to witness.

Somehow or the other, it happened again after Diwali.  This time, I was not around when it happened but hubby was caught right in it.  A big one.  An accident happened.  Things got out of hand and took a worse turn.  When I first heard it, I was worried because I was not with him.  Immediately bandhans were given and all the sisters told me don't worry, it's cool.  But my heart was not settled.  The panic button was on.  Many scenarios in my mind.  I was already expecting the worse.

Back with him, after hearing the full story, found that it has gotten out of hand.  That same night, I immediately cleared him.  It was cool.  But his head and mine could not understand the interpretations of the vibrations.  How can it be cool when things are so terrible?  He asked what is Shri Mataji's message to him?  I can't answer but I convinced him that it's being taken care off.  Deep in my heart, I wasn't so sure.

That whole night, the worries went on.  We could not sleep and was just anticipating morning to come.  Bandhans and bandhans and pray and pray.  I tried sleeping in the meditation room, hoping Shri Mataji would come into my dream to give me some answers.  Just could not rest my mind.

Morning came and found that the problem has been resolved 50%, miraculously.  Thank God and Shri Mataji and all the angels above that the situation was not as bad as I thought.  But I was informed that earlier when it happened, it was very bad.  

The anger and hatred was still not suppressed.  We kept quiet throughout the incident as we do not want to aggravate it further.  We surrendered to Shri Mataji.  Of course, that didn't went well with the other party.  

Sahaja Yogis around us who found out about this gave their bandhans and love.  It was still cool.  Deep inside, I felt calmer though hubby was fearful.  

Finally, the confrontations came.  I told hubby, I will side you, but I can't speak for you.  You have to speak out on your own.  Face your fears and just speak from your heart.  Speak honestly.  Speak truthfully.  The whole time, there was only one message that kept ringing in my ears, "Be in thoughtless awareness" and was able to witness the whole play, unfolding itself.  What a joke it was, I thought to myself.

And it went very well.  In fact, so well that I felt this is it.  The end.  For the first time in my life, I  also spoke the truth.  Not words that the other party wanted to hear, but words that my heart wanted to say for a long time.

Subsequently, we felt it all meant to happen.  Not sure if my understanding is correct, but it's for hubby to get out of his fear and speak his mind.  I was so calm throughout it and I was amazed.  Not a single tear.  If he can overcome his fear, there are so many things in life he could do and he could do so much more for Sahaja Yoga.

We watched too many dramas in life.  I mean TV dramas.  And if one guy killed the other, the friend or family would want revenge.  And unless and until vengeance is seek, they will not rest in peace.  Sometimes, the dying person would ask for revenge on his death.  

Revenge can only spark hatred.  Hatred does nothing to our lives except to make it miserable and sad.  
Without Shri Mataji in our lives, we would be continuously seeking revenge and vengeance.  Tit for tat.  When will it end?  Same thing with the world now.  Fight, wars.  For what?

Life is already so difficult, because man made it so.  But with Sahaja Yoga, life is beautiful.  Hatred can melt.  Sadness can dissolve.  Relationship can be mended. 

This is what Shri Mataji has taught us this time.

Innocence - We saw a child's innocence.  He loves and forgives and comforted and supported during this crisis.  He reassured the person who have unintentionally hurt him that he was ok.

"A little child can show you how we are stupid and foolish and how we behave. So many times you must have seen children come out of, with such utterances that the elders are put to shame. So the child-like temperament can be developed if we awaken Shri Ganesha’s principle within ourselves which is a very, very powerful, very, very powerful deity, very powerful deity. " - Excerpt from Shri Mataji Talk to Yogis 1985

"Now, if you say: “We can develop innocence, Mother”, you cannot. Which is the way to become innocent? In Sahaja Yoga, we have a proper method how we can become innocent. It happens through our thoughtless awareness. If you are in the state of thoughtless awareness, then what happens, you do not react. You do not get involved into wrong things. You do not get involved into any discussions, arguments. But you just watch. And the innocence within you rises beautifully, like a lotus rises out of a dirty pond.
So, whatever may be the circumstances, when you are in thoughtless awareness, you do not react. That is the sign of innocence. And people who do not react keep young. They will never show their age, they keep young. Because to react is not a very good thing, which makes you get involved into another person. But if you don’t react, if you are just watching, you are a witness. Then you don’t get involved into anything. You are away from it. And that’s how your innocence grows and you get very confident." - Excerpt from Shri Mataji Shri Ganesha Puja 2000

Forgiveness - We saw that by forgiving, we felt better in our hearts.

"Now the second condition is that you have to forgive everyone. Some will say it’s very difficult to forgive. But whether you forgive or don’t forgive, you don’t do anything. It’s a myth. But if you don’t forgive then you really play into the hands of the people who want to torture you. So best is to forgive them, forget about them. Forgive and forget. But don’t start counting how many people I have to forgive, what mistakes they have done – nothing of the kind. Just in general say “I forgive everyone” – just, and it’s done. Because Divine is the ocean of forgiveness, it’s a very powerful ocean of forgiveness, and you cannot do anything that it cannot forgive. And once you say “I forgive,” Divine takes over; we don’t have to bother. " - Excerpt from Shri Mataji Public Program, Sydney 1990.

"If you forgive others you are generous to yourself. First of all be generous to yourself, that is you forgive everybody else. If you forgive everybody else, then you are not tortured by that, you spare yourself from their tortures. This is a generosity towards yourself. Towards yourself the greatest generosity is that you do not bear any malice or bitterness about anyone. But clear-cut ideas that: ‘He’s like this and he’s like this.’ Just a clear-cut idea, but no reaction out of it. Somebody is a man, say, he’s bhootish, all right he’s a bhootish fellow, we know he’s a bhootish, keep yourself in bandhan, but don’t have a reaction out of it, then you have really forgiven everyone. Forgiveness gives you a big kavacha; is a big bandhan, is a big protection – we can say a ‘shield’ – from all kinds of evil that other’s can put on you.
Just forgive them, and then you see what happens to them. You just try this trick: just forgive, and see what happens to others who try to torture you. Of course, Divine never wants to torture anyone – that is definite. It never wants to torture; It is extremely generous, It likes to forgive. It enjoys Its forgiveness, It really enjoys. Generosity is to be enjoyed in the same way forgiveness is to be enjoyed; it’s very enjoyable. When you forgive others it’s the most enjoyable thing is that you see the play; you become the witness." - Except from Shri Mataji, Diwali Puja 1982

Love - This was the biggest lesson learnt.  For hubby, love doesn't come easy due to his past history.  But when he learn to love from all the love given, his heart softens and his love expands.

"The main form of the Spirit is that it is a storehouse of love. It is love. But this love is not the love that we know of. This love does not have any greed or lust, any pressure or any expectation. This love flows eternally and the benevolence in this love is worked out. While giving this benevolence, the Spirit does not have any jealousy and does not pressurize anyone. The working is spontaneous. Once this love starts flowing in a Sahaj (spontaneous) way then you will be surprised to see that everything works out by itself and you don’t need to do anything." - Excerpt from Shri Mataji Mahashivaratri Puja 1996

Patience - This is hubby's biggest strength which I lack a lot.  Because of his patience, I became patient too before jumping into conclusion.

"You must have patience. If you don’t have patience, you want immediately something to be done. How will you see the whole thing working out? Many people are extremely jittery and very fast-running. This world is running so fast and you are the ones who have stood out and watching this rat race. You are not one of them. So must have titiksha, means you must have patience. So you must have faith in yourself fully and also patience, how Sahaja Yoga is working out or how this Paramchaitanya is working out." - Excerpt from Shri Mataji Diwali Puja 1996

Courage - This message was given to me years ago, by Shri Mataji.  It's to face your fears and speak the truth.  

"Courage is silently very powerful.  You don’t have to bomb anybody, you don’t have to kill anybody, but you have to stand up with courage.  And that is another quality which you will express. It is very polite, very sweet, you will be standing with that courage.  I know so many of you are like that.  There’s no struggle, there’s no fight, just standing with courage and doing whatever is right.  And that is quite possible because you have now the connection with the Almighty.  You have the connection with the Paramchaitanya, and that will work out everything." - Excerpt from Shri Mataji Birthday Puja 2001

"So for us, what is there to see is that if you are divine and if you have powers of divinity, then you should have courage, and with that courage you can face all kinds of ordeals. On the whole, whenever you are on this earth there are problems of different types. You may belong to royal families, or maybe a poor person, there are always problems facing you. But Christ has shown by his life that, though he had to suffer so much, he was so patient and courageous. His life has given us an example, what we should be, how we should behave when we are facing problems because of ignorance of people." - Excerpt from Shri Mataji Christmas Puja 2003

Truth - Speaking it honestly is the best feeling ever.  Nothing to hide.

"Now the heart chakra here (in sahastrara), the peetha of the heart chakra , gets filled with the light of Truth. But the Truth is not such an absurd thing that we know of as Truth is. Somebody asked Me “What is the truth?” So I said that “It was written, long time back, that you should speak the truth and speak something that people will like.” – “Satyam vadet, priyam vadet.” Then people said “How can you meet these two things? Truth may not be palatable and could be something that you say which people like maybe false. So how to make these two things meet?” So Krishna gave a very good answer. He said, it’s like this – “Satyam vadet, hitam vadet, priyam vadet.” You say the truthtruth you must say, but that truth should be good or should be liked or should be appreciated or should be nourishing for your spirit, by which there is benevolence (hita) which creates benevolence and then a thing has to be priya. In the beginning people may not like and say that he said horrible things to me or whatever it is, but at the end of it, he will say that “See, it’s so good that this was said to me that I have done something,” perfect.

But in any case there is no need to say something very harsh or hard to anyone. That is not your job to go on correcting all the rest of the people. To begin with many sahaja yogis I have seen have been saying, “You’ve got this chakra caught up, you’ve got that chakra caught up!” All this is the play of ego." - Excerpt from Shri Mataji Sahasrara Puja 1997

Surrender - Divine has all the plans underway.  Things may not begin or end the way we wanted it to be.  But it will be the way Divine wanted it to be.  For our ascent.  Surrender everything, especially the ego.  Shoebeat and surrender.  Paperburn and surrender.  Bandhan and surrender.

"Such a mixture, a confusion. That is what is Kali Yuga is. Is modern times. Only way to get rid of them is to surrender. That is the only way. There is no other way around. Because when you surrender, the spirits, the negativities, the satanic forces just disappear. Because they are defective. They have no business to be there. They have no interest in a person who is surrendered to God. They cannot surrender. If they surrender they’ll also become saints. All the time to think, “What are my catches? What are my negativities?” Is not going to help you. Just surrender all these ideas that are coming to you and you’ll find that all absurd ideas will run away. This is the easiest way to get rid of your problems. Is just to surrender. After all, all these horrible people, all the horrible deities, enemies, who came forward to fight the Goddess, are there as long as you nurture them. As soon as you surrender yourself, they will find you of no use for themselves and they go to other half-baked people. The growth will only come, when the surrender is complete. One has to know that the powers are tremendous. You cannot conceive it as it is said by Markandeya. You cannot conceive it; it is beyond your conception. Outwardly you cannot understand, you just cannot understand. Under such circumstances the best thing is to surrender yourself. Now surrendering, what do you surrender? What do you surrender is your ego and your super-ego and it is completely cleansed and drenched in the blessing. Because you cannot give anything. You have to receive the blessings. And to receive the blessings you have to just surrender. It is so simple. The easiest way. To solve all your problems is to surrender.

Just say, “I surrender”. For realized souls it should be their mantra. And you will be amazed how all your problems will vanish. Because not only that the powers are tremendous, but as you are realized souls all the Divine Forces, all the Divine Deities, all the Eternal Beings; Chiranjivas, all the angels and the ganas, all of them are looking after you. But they know one thing, those who are surrendered and those who are not surrendered. You just surrender the problem, and you will be surprised that the answer will come in such a miraculous way. Just surrender. Do not take any responsibility upon yourself. Just surrender. Because how far you can go into the solution? Up to your rationality. Beyond that you have your Spirit, and the Spirit is connected to the Divine. So best is to surrender and the whole thing will show such light and such beauty and such meaning. In the modern times now the work is not the same way as it was when it is described. In the Raudrarupa or that the Chandrarupa you see there, was there at the back. It’s a mind work, it’s a Mother, it’s a simple thing. Loving, compassionate, for your protection. This rupa is there, but you do not see it. You are completely protected. Be sure of it." - Excerpt from Shri Mataji Navaratri Puja 1980

Last but not least, Thank You Shri Mataji again and again for Your guidance.  We found this time, it was a test for the heart.

"That’s why you should always keep in mind that there is no need to get angry with others in vain. You have absolutely no right to be angry with others. If Shiva is not doing so why should you? But people get angry extremely often and very heavily. Animals never get angry to such an extent. They won’t get annoyed without any reason. Thus while getting angry at small things we should always remember that the power of Shri Shiva exists within us as well. Forgetting that Shiva exists within us is exactly what makes us get angry with people and unable to forgive their faults and mistakes."  - Excerpt from Shri Mataji Shivaratri Puja 2003