The Mind is a Myth

Recently, my mind has been exercising a lot.  If my body exercised the same amount as my mind, I would have lost a lot of weight by now.

Wondered sometimes, if someone said something nice and praised us, our mind feels happy about it, is that Ego?

When we are happy, our face brighten up and everyone can see the glow, but the happy thoughts came from being impressed by someone, is that Ego?

For many years, I have a huge problem with Ego and sometimes it happened so quickly that I don't even notice it.  But lately, the ego got blown.  Suddenly everything changes, beyond the expectations of anyone.  In the long run, 50% of the ego will disappear (as I was told), but the heart is a bit hesitant.  Is it worth it?  It's a huge move and the future is unknown. 

It's all very new to me and no matter how hard I tried not to think of the future, I still can't help it.  It is now reaching a point that I want to again run away from it all.  Avoid the people.  Stay at home.  I need my 'me' time back and I need to be alone.  There's too many people making decisions for me and I don't know what I should be feeling, happy or sad? 

I want to go deep into myself, be surrounded by the vibrations, be in a quiet and peaceful place, where no thoughts can come.  I just need to be with myself and not with anyone else.  Just between me and God.  I need a break from it all and I just want some peace within.

Everyone is happy for me.  But they are not living my life.  So no matter what the suggestions are, in the end I have to make a decision.  Right now, I just don't want to think.  Because I feel it's the Ego that is causing all this worries and doubts.  The heart is heavy and I have been feeling a bit down the past few days.  It's affecting my vibrations and chakras.  I need a break.

This mind is just a myth

"Today, I'm going to talk about the mind. People don't know what is this mind is. It is very easy to understand for Sahaja Yogis that we are the ones who react, react to everything that is outside. The reason is we have two horrible tendencies, one which is an ego, and another tendency is that we are being trained that way, or we can call it the superego or the conditionings. So, both the things, our ego and conditionings, are all the time acting outside. This reaction, which is built-in within us, is just like bubbles in the ocean. And these bubbles keep us away from reality. These bubbles are of thoughts, and they just blast you all the time in your head, and you don't know why they are coming. When you depend on this artificial mind of yours then you have no discretion as to understand what is good and what is bad. This mind is the one where all kinds of evil things start, all kinds of quarrels, fights and - possessiveness, lastly the war also comes there. It is in this mind only, which is nothing but a myth, all these concrete, destructive ideas, somehow or other come up, and then they start growing and growing. Then you find people whom you can impress also, put ideas into their heads - by reading, they learn, or by their lectures, or by mesmerism, whatever kinds of things they can do. They put your mind into such a frame that you accept these destructive ideas, for yourself individually, or maybe for the collective. So this mind is just a myth and we are working through this mind. We are all the time satisfying ourselves by saying, “Oh, that's my mind, my mind wants it.”

H.H.Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi
Birthday Puja 1996

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