Jai Jai Jai Shri Mataji

There's one quote by Babamama (Shri Mataji's brother) that I like. "The sequence is the same but the consequences are different."

To me, having ego is like drug addiction because it is so difficult to give up and it comes back easily.  Surrender is the only way to get rid of ego.  Enough of talking.  Let's enjoy what Shri Mataji has to say.  Just want to post this as She spoke this on my 5th birthday. "Detaching from belongings. So, you know till the last end we are holding on to something very little there. If this, even a little bit holding the sari, you know that that can hold the whole sari. Even little bit is attaching to this sari, the sari can be held back. The whole thing you can hold it, with one little pin. All these small pins that are there, the hang-ups are to be denied, to be seen, going further. Look at yourself, ‘Oh, that’s Mr Ego alright. Now let me see how you go back.’ To see all those things. You see as a play you should see yourself. And then play tricks with your ego and superego. Actually, they are playing tricks with you. Once you are a master, you play tricks wit...

It's a secret. But now it's known to all, especially the Sahaja Yogis. Yesterday, I had a discussion with another Sahaja Yogi on why sometimes we still do things to hurt Shri Mataji, to hurt other Sahaja Yogis, to hurt ourselves (without knowing it), eventhough we have cleared and meditated, eventhough we have seen the beauty of vibrations, eventhough we have attended Sahaj classes, eventhough we have listened to Shri Mataji's speech so many times, eventhough we have given self-realisation to so many people, eventhough we have seen Shri Mataji in person. I have become mental on this because I was wondering and just cannot find an answer and was dwelling deeper into this confusion. The discussion was very short. The answer to it was also short. It's a lack of joy that causes it. Then I remembered the feelings I had when I was in Vashi. Since starting work, now entering 4th week, I could feel that day after day, I was feeling more lost at work, not sure what ...

I asked myself, who am I? I told others, I am a Chinese girl, born in Malaysia, who can speak Cantonese, which is my mother tongue, can speak, read and write in English and Bahasa Malaysia, which is our national language, but I cannot write or read Chinese. What? You are Chinese but you cannot understand Chinese? Well, I am what the people in my country call, a banana, i.e yellow on the outside, but white on the inside. I am not that bad, at least I can still speak Cantonese and can speak a little bit of Mandarin. Not all Malaysian Chinese are like me. There are many of them who went to Chinese school and get "Chinese-educated". My parents decided to send me to government school, so I am "English-educated". I have met some Chinese yogis and they said, come back to China. Well, Malaysia is my country and I am proud of it. They asked me, how am I a Chinese but also a Malaysian? To them, a Malaysian must be a Malay. It's very peculiar for them to hea...

Today is Shri Ganesha's Birthday, according to the Sahaj calendar 2010. I have posted a speech of Shri Mataji when She spoke on this day 2 years ago, so I won't post it again. Shri Mataji, please give me the innocence and wisdom of Shri Ganesha.

Today as I came home and came on the net and found vibrations just flowing on top of my Sahasrara. I have no idea why. Maybe because it's weekend and I have no work, no responsibilities, no worries. Since coming back from Vashi, it's easier to be on Sahasrara. Then I watched a Korean drama series and I could feel the vibrations were reducing. That is because I was reacting to how Korean mother-in-law treats their daughter-in-law. I was annoyed and came back on the net. Then from the net I found that a blogger has passed away in a tragic car accident. Momentarily my feelings from the past swift through me and I could feel that cool vibrations were getting lesser and lesser. I quickly recover myself and bring myself back to the present. This is how our attention affects us. Our thoughts, emotions and all activities to do with the brain affects our vibrations. I used to think a lot....like really really really a lot. All kinds of things, worries, what-if, shoulda,...

Today I would like to post about playing the harmonium because I noticed that many people who came to this blog is by searching the word playing the harmonium, which was one of my earlier post. A lot of people wants bhajan notes and how to play the harmonium tips. I started playing the harmonium in 2002 until now. I didn't learn from anyone but because I had piano background, I was able to play. In fact, it was easier to play the harmonium than a piano. I have a student, well, kinda like my student because I taught him how to play and the tips and what note to start, how's the beat and so on. My style of playing is western style because of the western musical knowledge that I have gained earlier. I just transfer this to the harmonium. Like I said, it was easier to play the harmonium in some ways because it is not rigid, unlike the piano you have to follow the rules or else you are considered like not a good player. I would like to learn how to play the Indian classical har...