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Thank you for a great day!!

Been eating so much yesterday.  The celebration doesn't seem to stop.  Thank you very much for a great day which marks the beginning of a new year for me.
I am now officially retired as Yuva Shakti coordinator for Malaysia.  It's time to concentrate on my inner being, my subtle system, my chakras and ascent now that I have more time on my hands.  Looking forward to a new beginning.
I want to get back to having longer meditation, cooler liver, better attention and alertness but still thoughtless.
I also want to start exercising again and get back to the routine.
I also want to start practising Shiva Panchakshari Stotram for performance in Cabella.

Here's to a good, joyful and happy year!!!  These were the paus for my breakfast yesterday.  I had 2 of them and they were oh-so delicious.  Yummy!!!  It came in different design.  The brown one is a porcupine.  The white with brown nose and ears is a dog.  The pink one is a pig.  The white with pink ribbon, not sure.  The green …

Another month to go...yay

Taken from One month from today, I will be stepping foot in Cabella Ligure!!!  So excited and just hope for my leave to be approved soon.

It's my birthday!!!

It's a great day.  Thank you everyone for remembering my birthday and celebrating it with me.  Although it is just the start of the day, I would like to take this opportunity to thank a few people:

Thanks to Lat for your kind and generous gift.  Love the T'shirt.Thanks to Kim for the comfortable pair of pyjamas.  It's just my size, not too big, not too small.  Just nice.Thanks to Lat & Kim for my favourite pandan layer cake. Thanks to Sis and Kevin for the flowers.  Yes I heard there's more to come and will be patiently waiting.Thanks to Mom and Dad for the Nasi Lemak with the extra egg.  Also for the pau and tonight's dinner.Thanks to Amy and Mr. Lim, for the San Francisco Cookies and Cream Frappe and Cheesecake.Thanks to Aunty Josephine and Aunty Yoke Yin for the ang pow.and Thanks to everyone for your wishes and kind thoughts. I got myself a gift.  Ha ha, well, it's free and I am loving it.  It's the LinkWithin widget.  I need to post more photos so …

Another story

Amazing things are happening slowly but surely.  I am truly grateful for all the presents I received in advance.  Thank you to you all and I love you all very much.  I am so blessed to know such good people in my life.

It's quiet and dark.  Dog barking can be heard in the near distance and it did not disturbed her.  She was still sitting down, enjoying the silence within.  Since the prayer, Kate has been withdrawing into the quiet world and enjoying every single moment of it.  In the silence, she can feel movements of the motherly love travelling from the bottom, going up each organs in her body and giving her a cool sensation.  Whatever blockages was relieved by the same motherly love.  Her heart was feeling a warm, innate joy that wraps her entire body with vibrations.  'I forgive, I forgive', Kate recited and finally she could feel the connection.

While still in meditation, Kate saw a book of knowledge.  She opened it and certain words fle…

Music of Joy and the Joy of Music

Friday evening, Music of Joy was performing.  This was the first time I was watching them from the audience point of view.  Previously I had joined them to sing at International Pujas, learn a few songs from them and just listened to the CD.

They were just great.  Awesome voices, amazing composition, the blend of different instruments were just out of this world.  I love all their singing and the songs.  It's just different from the Indian classical bhajan.  How they combined their voices into different tones to create harmony.  How they use different musical intruments to create a different feel.  They had the Indian instruments like harmonium, tabla, dholak and chimtar.  Then they blend it with the Western instruments like the bass guitar, saxaphone, flute and other percussion instruments.  Finally, because they were from Australia, they had a didgeridoo too to give the classic aboriginal feel. 

One cannot compare Western classical music with Indian classical music.  Personally…


I tried to continue with the stories, but I am having writer's block.  Haha.  I just can't continue with the story no matter how I tried.  I have a lot of ideas when I wrote the first story and then just can't go on anymore.

Well, I will continue trying....Let's see what comes out...

Jass a story...

Jass has been very unhappy with her life.  She blamed it all on others instead on herself although she feels guilty inside for not being happy.  She tried to be happy most of the time, but there's always something or the other that makes her unhappy again.  It could be anything.  From work, to people she just met, to things that she is not doing.  Nothing in her life makes her happy, nothing makes her satisfied.  She is always hoping for God to appear in front of her and tell her what's wrong with her, to tell her what lies ahead of her and how to be happy.  Tired and desperate, her last attempt was to completely surrender to the Divine.
One day she was woken up by an elephant-headed-body-of-a-child personality.  He took her hands and when he opened her room door, instead of looking out to another hall, it was a beautiful garden.  He skipped and danced around the garden, smelling all the fragrant flowers and rolling on the green grass.  He climbed a mango tree and plucked a r…

Leela game - message I received today

"In your childlike nature only, you can receive the blessings of Gauri, otherwise you cannot. You have to be really childlike otherwise it is absolutely useless, no use telling you anything because you think you are too clever. To such a person, who thinks he is clever, what’s the use of talking to such a person because he already knows everything. So the first power, when you develop, you must learn to sit on the Mother Earth first of all. You must respect the Mother Earth because the first chakra is made out of the Mother Earth. Try to be more settled down with yourself on Mother Earth. And the respect – see the trees when they get their flowers, they are not so respectful, but when they are laden by the fruits, they bow down to the Mother Earth. In the same way, when you have got the fruits of Sahaja Yoga, you must all bow down." - Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi

This mind is just a Myth

Today, I'm going to talk about the mind. People don't know what is this mind is. It is very easy to understand for Sahaja Yogis that we are the ones who react, react to everything that is outside. The reason is we have two horrible tendencies, one which is an ego, and another tendency is that we are being trained that way, or we can call it the superego or the conditionings. So, both the things, our ego and conditionings, are all the time acting outside. This reaction, which is built-in within us, is just like bubbles in the ocean. And these bubbles keep us away from reality. These bubbles are of thoughts, and they just blast you all the time in your head, and you don't know why they are coming. When you depend on this artificial mind of yours then you have no discretion as to understand what is good and what is bad. This mind is the one where all kinds of evil things start, all kinds of quarrels, fights and - possessiveness, lastly the war also comes there.…

Dear Shri Mataji

I missed the feelings of tremendous joy when I was in Vashi.  The feeling of desireless, the feeling of tremendous love, the feeling of freedom of the spirit, the feeling of complete surrender to the Divine and the Bhakti.
Here I pray that I am able to completely surrender my thoughts, conditionings, ego, superego, all desires, fears, expectations and worries.
I pray too, to be able to balance my chakras while still doing handover of the Yuva Shakti, working in a corporate world and living with non-Sahajis.  I used to say I will wait until a certain time, then only I will clear my chakras.  Procrastination is too much and it has not helped me a bit.  I am not going to wait anymore and I want to get down to it now.  No more taking things for granted.  There is no way I can wait until everything stabilises, no work load, no stress, no busy-ness in life, then only I can be balance.  This is not how life works.
With this prayer, I hope I am able to overcome all my shortcomings, open my h…

Introspective questions

During the recent National Seminar, we had an introspective session in which there were questions we asked ourselves whether we have reach THERE, how is our ascent, whether we have grown deeper and whether we know ourselves well.  I am sharing the questions here.  All the questions are from Shri Mataji various talks.
Am I innocent or aggressive in my behaviour?Do I react all the time?Am I really able to feel the vibrations?Do I use wisdom in my seeking?Is my Attention involved with my spiritual ascent or worldly endeavours?Am I still indulging in my past habits which are against my spiritual ascents?How much effort do I make for my spiritual ascent?Am I honest in my seeking?Do I really believe in 'Paramchaitanya'?Am I humble?Do I behave in a dignified way?Is my heart clean or covered with jealousy or ego?How much 'Bhakti' or 'Shraddha' do I have for Shri Mataji?Can I love without seeking anything in return?Is my seeking and behaviour superficial?Am I genuinely …

Reminder to myself

This is a reminder to myself.  I am very forgetful and tend to forget what I preached.  So here's something that I want to remember.  These are the points given by another Sahaja Yogi. 

Think less and be happy.Stop questioning.Be joyful.  In joy, everything will work out, not the way I want but the way it should be.  In joy, I can be nice to people and to myself.  In joy, I can relax and do what I need to.  Here's some additional points that will help to improve certain aspects of my life.  Like I was reading a lot on how to improve my eyesight naturally and most of the articles said we have to be in the present and start paying attention to details, to things and to have good thoughts.  Apparently if we have good thoughts, naturally our eyes also will have better focusing power.   OK, I am not telling exactly what the articles are saying, but you get the message.  So, being in Sahaja Yoga can help my eyesight a lot.  Here's a few tips: Be meditative all the time.Put attent…

Australian Yuva Shakti Field Trip in Malaysia - KL Leg

They were here from the time of our National Seminar, which is 25th June 2010 to 27th June 2010 till 11th July 2010, which marked the end of their field trip.  First to Seremban, south of KL and then to Penang, north of KL.  Then lastly back to KL before flying back to Australia.  
I wish I have photos of everything but I only have photos of the waterfall day.
There were 7 of them who came.  2 from Perth while 5 from Sydney.  The Seremban field trip started from 28th June 2010 to 30th June 2010.  Haven't got any details of the Seremban Yuva Shakti but I heard they went to Port Dickson, which is near the sea.
From 1st July 2010 to 5th July 2010, they went to Penang.  Again, not sure what they did there.  Only news that I got from the Aussies were that they ate a lot of Malaysian food in Penang.  Food is always a priority on our list for any of our visitors.  Seafood especially.
Then from 5th July 2010 to 11th July 2010, they came to KL.  And here I will talk about a little of their tri…

Building the excitement

I had a meltdown yesterday due to over-responsibilities and over-stress myself.  I have a million of thoughts in my head of what to do next but when it gets down to it, it's actually less than 10 items to do.  In other words, over-responsibilities spells ego and over-stress spells meltdown.  If only this ego will just be surrendered, once and for all, a lot of my problems will be solved.
Moving forward, the excitement to Cabella is building up.  I am getting more excited as each day passes.  It's another month plus and I am so looking forward to this trip.  
Air tickets purchased.  I will be flying from LCCT to London-Stansted via AirAsia.  From there will stay a night at some friend's place and then the next day take Ryan Air from London-Stansted to Genoa.  This is the first time I am flying into London-Stansted and Genoa, so that doubles the excitement.  
9 years ago.  I was in Cabella 9 years ago.  That is a long, long time.  That was my first ever international puja.  S…

So many things to blog about...

Wow, another busy weekend has come and gone.  It was not a very easy weekend and I am glad it is finally over, especially yesterday.  Can't even express how my emotions or feelings were.  Just glad that it's over.
Many things I have learn over the week.  Where should I start?  I hope this is not going to be a super long post.
Sahaj children I posted on how lucky some people were able to be born Sahaj.  That was entirely my opinion before I chatted with them.  I had a chance to speak to 2 of them, the Australian Yuvas who came to Malaysia for their field trip.  They gave me their side of the story and they said it's actually much more difficult being born Sahaj.
They said that the moment they were born, there were already some expectations for them on how they should behave and be.  They were surrounded by the community and have to live up to the community's expectations.  All eyes on them.
They said unlike us who were actually seeking and found, they have to learn and …

Sahaj children

When I attended my first International Puja in Cabella, 9 years ago, I was enchanted by the beauty of Sahaj children.  That was the first time I met children born out of Sahaj, from Sahaj marriages.  Not only were they beautiful on the outside, they were extremely intelligent and beautiful on the inside.
Recently the OZ yuvas came for a field trip in Malaysia and again I was fascinated by them.  All of them were born in Sahaj and their parents were Sahaj married.  I guess their parents were the earlier batches of Sahaj matched and married couples.
This morning I woke up wondering if my parents were Sahaj married, then I will be beautiful and intelligent like them too, that I will be more spiritually inclined and balanced.  LOL!!!  
Anyway, God created us in His own image and we are ALL beautiful, no matter what colour is our skin or eyes, whether we are tall or short, doesn't matter which country we were born or which race we were, we are all uniquely created and we are all God'…

Taking a break

There's just too much happening at the same time.  So much of planning, preparing, executing and finally the actual action that take place.
Since the end of the seminar, while everyone enjoyed the 3 days of bliss and now back to day-to-day life, I on the other hand was busy chasing reporters for their National Seminar articles and getting the designer to discuss about new designs, etc.  At the same time, the Yuva Shakti field trip is ongoing and I have to remind the respective state reporters to remember to write and send us the photos.
This is because there will be 2 Special Edition Yuva Shakti Newsletter issues, one to focus on the National Seminar while the other on the Yuva Shakti field trip, releasing end of July and August respectively.
Meantime, I was busy trying to get cheap tickets to Cabella and was staring at the websites like it is a stock exchange data.
Happening at the same time was also my cousins' wedding.  Cousins, not 1, but 2.  Last weekend was booked becau…

Shri Mataji's letter

1975 letter from  Shri Mataji to sahaja yogis, written on May 5th, 5 years after the opening of Sahasrara Chakra at the universal level.

Attention, Maya and Walking on the Path…
In 1975, Shri Mataji (the founder of Sahaja Yoga Meditation) celebrated Sahasrara Day in London with about twenty to twenty-five invited people. On that same day, she sent a letter in Marathi to the Sahaja Yogis in India. Excerpts are provided below. “I am explaining, in this letter,” She wrote, “what is Unreal. It should be read out to all and assimilated by all.”
Your name, village, country, horoscope, forecasts, many such things get attached to you or others attach them to you. Once the Brahmarandhra (the top of the head -fontanel bone area, the core of Sahasrara chakra) is closed, many types of illusory ideas become part of your mind….
Only that attention which progresses, renouncing all that is unreal, breaks all known and unknown bindings becomes verily the Self. Atma (the Spirit) is never dis…

A chance or a risk?

The past few days since the seminar I have been really tired.  A lot was in my mind and there were so many things to do still. 
I have also been trying hard to get tickets to Cabella but so far the price is too expensive.  It's hard to accommodate everyone and if can, I would just book my own ticket and go on my own but I can't.  It's not save for a girl to travel alone to Italy.  Some say it's safer in India than Italy.  
A few months ago, I looked at 'it' as the biggest risk in my life.  However, as the time is nearer, I now feel that it's a chance of a lifetime.  What is 'it'?  I will tell later if everything works out.
But that's not what's on my mind lately.  I have been thinking about the yuvas a lot.
Since the seminar, we have gotten closer together.  
I realised so many things about them.  
I have also been introspecting and found something about myself.
A committee has been formed and members selected.  They will take over from me…