Thursday, April 16, 2015

A Break would be Great!

Each time I want a break, I ended up in the hospital.  When I was at the peak of my work back in 2007, I desired to have a nice, long break.  I was hospitalized to have my appendix removed and was given 3 weeks medical leave.

Back in 2012, I was again feeling very tired from working and was in physical pain and again hospitalized to have hemorrhoids removed.  I was again on medical leave for 3 weeks.

In between, in 2009, when I resigned from my job and before entering the new, I took 1 month's break to go India and got cleared out.

Now, it's 2015 and again I feel a break is very much welcome.  Every 2 years, I need a break from my daily mundane routine.  To get recharge.  To forget about work and responsibilities.  But I don't want to be hospitalize again for that.

I need a break
From the daily mundane weekday routine
From fussing about getting up in the mornings
To get stuck in traffic jams
Thank you to Waze
For bringing me to a new adventure every morning
Sometimes you don't behave like you should
And I ended up late for work
But you were there to make my mornings a little bit exciting

I need a break
From the egos and rudeness of lousy leaders at work
From the inefficiency, lack of communication and toxic environment
To the culture that is difficult to break
That encourages the finger pointing blame game
I do appreciate the piano in the lounge
Where good players show off their skills
And create music that is pleasing to the ears
And the ensemble that practices every Wednesday
From The Phantom of the Opera
To the Sound of Music

I need a break
Away from the usual cycle
Of eating, working, eating, sleeping
Away from the daily dramas and stress
I would love to lie on the green grass
And stare at the clear blue sky
Feeling the warmth of the sun
Watching birds flying freely
With no one around me
The peace of mind
Of no pressure and responsibilities
Just me and nature would be great

I need a break
To go to India if possible
Not for touring or shopping 
But to enjoy the great vibrations
To have wonderful meditations
To be near to our Divine Mother
To get clear out at the Noida hospital
To get a new mangalsutra
To enjoy India with husband
To have our first India trip together
To visit the Ganges River
To walk on the clear sandy banks

I need a break
From all the rules and red tapes
From visa to driving license
To all the inconveniences of having a foreign spouse
Giving self-realisation would be better
Instead of complaining of the lack of life
Watching seekers blossoming face
Accepting in the heart the Mother's love
Understanding the beauty of the power
The power that created us
The power that binds us

I truly need a break from working.  In the current work place, annual leave is very difficult to accumulate, at least for me.  Workaholics would easily accumulate 20-30 days and sometimes get them forfeited.  But I can't.  You see, our work place requires us to accumulate leave as we work.  If we have no leave in January, but intend to take leave for the new year, then it's unpaid leave.  Unfair as it is.

Every now and then I need to take leave to settle some red tapes.  Especially after marriage.  Foreign spouse are not very much welcome here, especially when we are not rich.  But we will deal with it.  So since marriage, I haven't been able to accumulate my leave.

Also because he is only off on Thursdays and to suit his off-day, I usually take Thursday's off to do things together.  So there goes my leave.

Since marriage, I haven't gone for a long overseas trip.  I used to be able to do that when single.  But not now.  But I do wish to travel with husband on a nice overseas Sahaj trip.  It will be our first together if we don't count the time we went to Cabella for our Sahaj wedding.

Yes, a break would be great!

Friday, April 10, 2015

Ravi Shankar - Vandanna

When I first started Sahaja Yoga, a Sahaja Yogini suggested we learn this song because it's very meaningful.  We tried to get the lyrics but unable to do so.

Over the years, I tried to google for this but unable to do so, until now.


Friday, April 03, 2015

Review : No Poo Shampoo Method

Have you heard of this 'No Poo' Shampoo method?  Many celebrities swore by it.  And some people do not wash their hair with shampoo for months and years but just using this method.

Basically, it's the way you wash you hair, without any shampoo but only with baking soda and apple cider vinegar.

I have very bad dandruff problems on my scalp.  Tried every single thing in the market but not successful to eradicate.  These are the things I tried and tested:

  • Anti-dandruff shampoo, from famous brands to cheapest
  • Scalp care treatment at hair salon which cost me RM200++ per treatment
  • Herbal shampoos from ayurvedic to organic
  • Tried washing everyday
First this is what happened when I use the above methods:

  • Anti-dandruff shampoo - It stopped the dandruff for few months but eventually my scalp got immune to it and the flaky stuff came back.  Also, the chemicals in the shampoo doesn't go very well with my sensitive skin on my face and caused itchiness and burning sensation.
  • Scalp care treatment - Very expensive and will only make my scalp feel drier but better for few months.  Then it was back.  I was told I needed monthly scalp care treatment but that was costing a bomb.
  • Herbal shampoos - I tried from organic to ayurvedic and the effects were only good for few months.  Once my scalp got immune to it, it was back to square one.  The good thing was these shampoos doesn't make my face itch.
  • Washing everyday - I was told to wash everyday in order to rid the oil and hence better for my scalp.  Washing everyday was very tedious and not only it didn't help the dandruff issues, it was making my hair very dry.
So every few months, once my scalp got the hang of the shampoos that I used, the flakiness will start.  Sometimes it's so embarrassed to wear black tops as it feels like snowflakes on my shoulders.  Once, my boss was walking behind me and noticed the white stuff all over my black blouse and was shocked and told me to go and see a doctor.  Yup, it was that bad.

Not only was the flakiness present but the itch was unbearable.  The more I scratched, the more the dandruff falls.  

Also, some of the products mentioned above gave me hair fall, like shedding.  I can't even remember which one does that.

Anyway, I was searching online for a natural remedy and I found the 'No Poo Method'.  So I experimented a few times and these were the results:

The method is to mix a tablespoon of baking soda to water to make it into a thick solution.  Then apply it on the hair, massaged it into the scalp.  Leave it for few minutes and then rinse.  Use warm water for that.  Then add a tablespoon of apple cider vinegar to a glass of cold water.  Rinse your hair with that solution and then wash with cold water.

Experiment 1 - Baking soda only
Baking soda was great to stop the flakiness.  In fact, immediately after I washed my hair, I found that there was no more flakiness.  The thing was my hair became very dry and unmanageable.  Looks as if I have just woken up from my sleep.

Experiment 2 - Apple cider vinegar only
At first, I thought the vinegar smell will be too strong.  But when my hair is dried completely, the smell vanishes.  This solution acts as a conditioner to the hair.  It feels great and gave volume to my hair and also the flakiness stopped.  It doesn't take away the oil completely though.  However, many uses of this will lighten the hair color as it is acidic.  

Experiment 3 - Baking soda and apple cider vinegar
This is the recommended method.  Baking soda acts as the shampoo and removes all the oil and apple cider vinegar acts as the conditioner.  The combination is actually to neutralise hair's pH.  Baking soda is very alkaline while apple cider vinegar is acidic.  And the result was, no dandruff, hair's feel clean and not oily, gave volume and not dry.  

But now I have problem with smelly hair.  No, the apple cider vinegar doesn't makes my hair smell.  It's just that living in a hot and humid country makes everything smells.

If I don't wash it for a day, the smell is there.  So I tried this:

Experiment 4 - Baking soda and essential oil
The effect was same as Experiment 1 but gave my hair a nice smell.  I think I put in too many drops of essential oil and the smell was too strong.  In fact, the next day, I was feeling quite sick with the smell and couldn't wait to wash my hair to rid it.

Experiment 5 - Baking soda and essential oil in the apple cider vinegar
The effect was same as Experiment 3 and my hair smell great after that.  It wasn't too strong too.  But probably the smell is still too strong compared to shampoos.  Still can't get use to it.  May try to reduce the amount of essential oil.  Just 1 drop will do.

Experiment 6 - Coconut oil massage and baking soda wash
First massage the coconut oil into the scalp and leave it for few minutes.  Then wash with the baking soda.  The only thing was baking soda is not as strong as shampoo, so not all the oil can be washed off.  If you are ok with looking wet all the time, then this is the best combo.  The coconut oil smell is great too.  

However, I couldn't stand looking wet all the time as my hair would looked limp and oily.  So, after leaving the coconut oil for 1 whole day, then I washed it with shampoo as I couldn't stand the oiliness.  After that the hair feels so great.  More volume, smooth and smells great.  

I think this method works best with curly hair.

The problem I had with this method was time.  This method needs more time to wash and rinse compared to shampoo.  But that can be resolved by waking up a little earlier.  No big deal.

The next issue I had was smell.  I still can't find the balance in getting my hair smells great without too overpowering.

Another issue I had was finding the right combination.  So, during weekdays as I couldn't get the right combo, I went back to shampoo.

Also, you can't do this method every single day as the vinegar can really lighten your hair colour and in my case, I dyed my grey hairs, so this is not so good for me.

What I am going to try next is this combo:

First, during the weekends, massage the scalp with coconut oil.  Then wash with baking soda and apple cider vinegar.  Then during weekdays to wash only with plain water.  And on weekends, back to the routine.  Let's see if this is the best combo for me.

You may not get used to the no bubbles, no foams method that shampoo has.  You may feel as if your hair is not cleanse properly.  Trust me, it is clean.  But you just need to get over the conditioning that foams and bubbles cleanse and vice versa.

Monday, March 16, 2015

Birthday Felicitation 20 March 2001

Wow, I said so much in the other post and Shri Mataji said it all in this one speech.  Please listen and fulfill Shri Mataji's desire for Her coming birthday.

Jai Shri Mataji!

Friday, March 13, 2015

What have we become?

Disclaimer: What I am going to write is entirely my personal opinion.  Comment function has been disabled as I do not want an active discussion about what I am about to write.  You can read and agree or disagree.  If you don't like what I wrote, feel free to leave.  But if you insist on reading and then have a reaction to it, then please go and clear yourself and balance and most important of all, forgive me for writing and forgive yourself for reading.  Don't catch on your agnya just because you reacted to what I wrote.

Sorry for the harsh opening.  It's not like I am going bash anyone.  In fact, I am not even angry.  I am just sharing my opinion on recent happenings that I see and witness and happenings that I reacted and failed to stop myself from reacting.

1. The truth is out there
Recently, on Facebook, there was a bandhan requested for all yuvas and realised-born children who have lost their way and path in this Kali Yuga and for them to find their way back to the truth.  While the bandhan was going on, there was also an active discussion on whether we are doing enough for our yuvas. 

Too bad, the adults also have this problem.  Some become Mahayogis and think they know everything from A to Z.  That also deviate from the path of truth.

2. Giving SR
Giving SR is an activity very much respected and high lauded by yogis.  It's a Divine work and Shri Mataji had mentioned in so many talks that we must go all out to give self-realisation.  Then came the issue of ego.  

Here we are giving SR to newcomers and introducing them to Sahaja Yoga, and then there we are chasing yogis away by judging them and giving them a bad name.  We should be ashamed of ourselves because we are giving Sahaja Yoga a very bad name.

3. Ego
When ego comes into play, all hell break loose.  Do we need to say more?  Shri Mataji been telling us to surrender our ego.  Instead, we are making a fool out of ourselves.  Here are some of Shri Mataji's talk on ego.

4. Blaming others
When things happened, stop blaming others.  Instead look into ourselves and see why it happened. When someone is sick, it's not because they are not doing Sahaja Yoga properly.  When someone is down on their luck, it's not because they are not meditating properly.  Stop this blaming others problem. 

"Once you become a Sahaja yogi, the concern for your benevolence is all the time there. Whether you are punished or not is a different point. Some people might get a job. Some people will not get a job. With some people it will work out this way, with some people it will not work out that way. Then one may say that “How is it this Paramachaitanya is behaving like this?” It’s all for your correction. It’s a big churning; whatever works out for your correction and is for your benevolence. If you understand this point, then you’ll never be disappointed in your life.  And it has no concern of its own benevolence, because it is complete benevolence itself. It never thinks how it is going to be benevolent or helpful, because it has no botheration about it." Extract from Shri Paramchaitanya Puja 1989.

Now, don't start blaming Paramchaitanya, ok?

5. Are we absorbing Shri Mataji's message?
Hello?  Are you listening?  It's like the message goes in one ear and out the other.  Some are even better.  Interpreting Shri Mataji's message to their own definition.  

6. Unruly behaviour
This is new to me.  That yogis behaved worst than non-yogis.  Maybe some of us are not cut to be Sahaja Yogis, but just stayed in Sahaja Yoga because of the nice vibrations?  I don't know.  But sometimes I feel unruly behaviour should be eliminated.  Treat others nicely.  Not shout at them. Stop suspecting everyone or think everyone is doing something wrong.  Start looking at ourselves and see if we are doing anything right.  No need to yell.  No need to be in anger all the time.  No need to treat everyone as if they are your enemies.  There is no need to discuss anything.  Stop judging.

7. Where's the love?
So much of hatred.  So much of negative attention.  Where's the love, peeps?  Shri Mataji loved us so much and yet we can't love one another.  

8. Anger
Do you still have it?  If you still do, like me, then it's time to shoebeat this problem.  Because from my own witness, when the anger gets out of control, then we failed to react rationally.  And then the problem becomes worse.  Words get thrown out.  Hurtful words which cannot be reversed.  

9. Shri Mataji's ashram
It's a place for all yogis.  Not just you and me.  And not those who found the place.  And not those who are living in the place.  It's for everyone.  So, don't start claiming your rights on it.  Again ego play.  

10. Meditate, meditate, meditate
In these difficult and challenging times, do listen more to Shri Mataji's talk or read the articles in Amruta.  If yogis are fighting with yogis, then I guess we are not cut to enter the Kingdom of God.  So, if anyone is angry towards you, be a witness.  God knows.  Karma knows.  If you think you did something wrong, then change.  Meditate and be balance.  The most important thing to do now is to be connected with the Divine power that created us.  And that's the most fundamental thing that we always forget.  It's only through meditation that we get the answers and vibrations.  Whether it's true or not, it will be shown.  

Thank God for vibrations!

Friday, March 06, 2015

Renewing Malaysian passport 2015

First of all, I must praise all Jabatan Imigresen Malaysia's staff at Kelana Jaya branch.  Good service with a smile and super efficient.  Thank you very much!

This morning we left the house at 7am.  Plaza Glomac is not very far from our house.  We reached at 7.30am and found there was already a queue.  Hubby quickly went to queue while I went to park the car.  There were plenty of parking spaces and within walking distance.

The JIM office at Kelana Jaya branch is very, very small.  There are only 10 counters, Counter 4-5 serves only senior citizens and children while Counter 6-10 was for the rest of us.  Counter 1 and 2 were for collection of passport while Counter 3 is cashier.

When the doors open at 7.30am sharp, the security guard will pass you the application form which is half of an A4 paper.  The info required is just Name, Address, Phone number, Email address, IC no, Sex and marital status.  He then informed us to fill it up and get ready with the IC.  Upon reaching the number counter, the officer checked our IC to see if we are seniors or not and gave the number accordingly.  I was number 18.  Not too bad right?  Maybe it's a week day.

When my number was called, I handed over my old passport, IC and the form.  The officer would then ask you to face the camera, a device which is fixed at the side of each cubicle.  A word of reminder, please wear dark clothes.  If not, they will ask you to wear one of their coats hanging on the rack.  

I was instucted to remove my glasses before photo was taken.  Hair must be behind ears and does not cover the forehead.  Also, hair should not be messy.  I was at Counter 10 and there was a small mirror for me to check myself.  Other counters no mirror.

Once photo is taken, officer will ask you to check if it's ok.  Then digitally verify your left and right thumb print and then sign on a printed form and put right thumb print in ink.  And that was it.

In another 15 minutes, number was called again to pay.  Currently there is a discount.  5 years is RM200 for adults while senior and children is RM100.

The whole process from queuing to payment only takes 30 minutes.

Upon payment a receipt will be issue and you will be told to come back in an hour's time to collect.

Take this time to have a hearty breakfast and when an hour is up, pass the receipt to the officer at Counter 1 or 2.  Your name will be called and new passport will be given to you.  That's it!  Whole process was 1.5 hours.  Parking was RM3.20.

Here is what you need to prepare prior to the visit to JIM:

1. Old passport
3. RM200
4. Wear dark clothes and ensure hair is neat.

Very efficient and very good service.  Well done!

Tuesday, March 03, 2015

Intuition / Zodiac / Marriage

There are lots to write and not limited to a certain subject.  So, this is going to be a post of all my recent thoughts.

Instincts / Intuition / Sixth Sense
From young, I have a very strong sixth sense.  I didn't know what it was until I read about it when I was in my teens.  I can't remember much of how my sixth sense worked, but here's one that I can remember:

I was 18 or 19 years old.  I was hanging wet clothes to dry on the line in my backyard.  Suddenly I was reminded of a friend, John.  We hardly meet and not very close.  And yet all of a sudden, I thought of him.  And seconds later, a red Proton Satria droved by.  Then I realised, John drives one.  Although that was not John in the car, but to have a sixth sense that something going to happen, weird in all ways, but true.

Many times my sixth sense worked in a strange way, not always bad, not always good but not extreme like some others.  There are also many times I have a dejavu.  Like for example, I saw something in my dream and it happened in real life, exactly like in the dream.  Sometimes it's so useless that I can only see it happened, but nothing to do to change it.

After Sahaj, I thought maybe I am too right-sided to have all these things.  But it still happened.

Last Saturday, after leaving the centre, while waiting for a Sahaj brother and hubby to throw rubbish, I was waiting near the car.  It was quiet although opposite of a restaurant.  I was having my new sling handbag and all of a sudden, I have a very bad feeling.

I had a feeling that I was in danger and that my bag could be snatched easily as I was alone in a quiet and dark place.  

They came back and we got into the car and nothing happened, though while trying to take out my sling bag, my mangalsutra came out.  So we got home safe and sound.

But when I opened Facebook and Whatsapp, found that one Sahaj brother got slashed and was bleeding profusely.  He was trying to protect his wife when the snatch thieves tried to steal her bag, right in front of our centre, just after we left.  He punched the snatchers (2 of them on a bike) and one slashed him badly.  He was hospitalised and had surgery.  The cut was deep but he is fine now.

See, these feelings are real.  But there's nothing I could do to change things.  It was like useless, sometimes disappointing.  Sometimes it's better not to know.

Sometimes I wish they can be useful.  Like to know something in the future, say, better luck in the future or financially well, you know what I mean?  Then again, that's futuristic.

Year of the my zodiac
So I have been told that this year is not a good year for me.  According to my mom, I should wear colors that are good for me and avoid bad luck colors.  

According to my this year's Chinese horoscope, the year is indeed not a smooth year.  In order to prevent bad things from happening, I was advised to be humble, down-to-earth and not get into a fight with anybody, be patient and well-manners.  Even if there are anything that I disagreed, it is better to keep quiet than to raise a point as the outcome will turn out bad.  In other words, don't be egoistical.  This year is a year that doesn't go well and doesn't side with me.  Weird that although it's my zodiac year, it is bad for me.

Since coming to Sahaj, I don't really believe in horoscope so much.  But sometimes it'a nice to read.  Sometimes it's good to know.

Like for example, isn't it a good idea to be humble, down-to-earth, be patient and all that?  That's good moral behaviour and Shri Mataji has spoken so much about it.  Positive attitude attracts positive energy.

I do believe that this year is not going to be a smooth year entirely.  Maybe influence by the horoscope.  Maybe it's my own instincts again.

I find that it's very easy to have people mess up with me.  When driving on the road, there are more incidents in which other cars would suddenly come into your way and you have to be really careful and give way to them to avoid accident.  When in the office, nothing seems to be going my way and everything is stuck somewhere.  When at home, so far walking on eggshells.  

So, it's good to be patient.  It's good to be well-mannered to all.  It's good to be humble.  It's good to surrender the ego.  

It's probably a year of tests for me, but it's ok.  It will be better for my agnya.

Marriage and daily muse
Our marriage hasn't been easy.  But it's not because of internal problems.  Our relationship is good and getting stronger.  It's external, coming from bureaucracy, red tape, opinions, judgments, etc.

Malaysian Immigration is not making things easier for us.  Though we manage to get the visa, but it's only for a year.

The latest thing we want to do to make our marriage a truly Malaysian way, is for him to convert his driving license to a Malaysian license.  Prior to this, what I understand is that it's a very simple process.  But I just read that it's not as easy as I thought.   Application is easy but approval may take time and may not be given.  We have just started the process of translating the document and coming up visit is to get the endorsement from the China Embassy.

Many things also due to his past conditionings that is making things difficult when we get married.  To get past it, need a lot of time and courage and strength and love and encouragement.

Before Sahaj, he led a simple life.  He came from a very conditioned family with very old fashion ideas.  Being the youngest, he followed whatever the parents told.  He thought he will just marry someone at his own city or country and bring her back to his home to live with his family, just like any Chinese men.  But a Sahaj marriage is different.  He married a Malaysian who can't speak or read or write Mandarin and having grown up in China, his English is poor.  Good thing is we both can communicate in Cantonese.  

After marriage, I couldn't get a job in China.  I found that if you don't know Chinese, accountancy or finance background will not bring you near China.  For IT industry, it's OK.  But not Finance.  You need to know how the Chinese accounting works.  Do you know what's a balance sheet or income statement call in China?  Do you even know the accountancy laws in China?  Tough.

Since I can't get a job in China, we both checked vibes and it was cooler for us to move to Malaysia.

So he migrated to Malaysia, frowned upon by his relatives and friends.  But he sacrificed his mundane life to be with me.  

He has to learn English from scratch.  He has to learn how to drive.  For our age, it's not easy to learn something new and for him, coming from a deeply conditioned family, it's not easy to break away from the conditioning.

But he did.

Though our marriage was blessed by Shri Mataji and by Sahaja Yogis, many family and friends don't understand why we ended up together in the first place.  Many non-yogis asked me why I chose him as my husband.  I replied, "Because he is a good man."

But of course, the struggles are real.  He got a job but pays lower than his job in China.  But we manages.

That being said, Sahaj marriage is not always all rainbows and flowers and fragrance and sweetness.  Sometimes there are bitterness, sometimes there are storms, sometimes there are torns, sometimes it stinks.  But because of all these obstacles, it made the marriage stronger.  Just don't give up.  And if both of us meditate together and clear together and surrender our hearts to Shri Mataji and Her alone, then things do work out.  Spiritually we are one.  In fact, Sahaj marriage, made us spiritually stronger.

In this Kali Yuga, the fight is real and very challenging.  No joke about this.  Whether for yuvas, whether for adults like us, the fight is there.  But I have a feeling, a very good feeling that things will fall into place this year.  What exactly I do not know, but things are going to be ok.

Jai Shri Mataji!


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