Disclaimer: What I am going to write is entirely my personal opinion. Comment function has been disabled as I do not want an active discussion about what I am about to write. You can read and agree or disagree. If you don't like what I wrote, feel free to leave. But if you insist on reading and then have a reaction to it, then please go and clear yourself and balance and most important of all, forgive me for writing and forgive yourself for reading. Don't catch on your agnya just because you reacted to what I wrote.
Sorry for the harsh opening. It's not like I am going bash anyone. In fact, I am not even angry. I am just sharing my opinion on recent happenings that I see and witness and happenings that I reacted and failed to stop myself from reacting.
1. The truth is out there
Recently, on Facebook, there was a bandhan requested for all yuvas and realised-born children who have lost their way and path in this Kali Yuga and for them to find their way back to the truth. While the bandhan was going on, there was also an active discussion on whether we are doing enough for our yuvas.
Too bad, the adults also have this problem. Some become Mahayogis and think they know everything from A to Z. That also deviate from the path of truth.
2. Giving SR
Giving SR is an activity very much respected and high lauded by yogis. It's a Divine work and Shri Mataji had mentioned in so many talks that we must go all out to give self-realisation. Then came the issue of ego.
Here we are giving SR to newcomers and introducing them to Sahaja Yoga, and then there we are chasing yogis away by judging them and giving them a bad name. We should be ashamed of ourselves because we are giving Sahaja Yoga a very bad name.
When ego comes into play, all hell break loose. Do we need to say more? Shri Mataji been telling us to surrender our ego. Instead, we are making a fool out of ourselves. Here are some of Shri Mataji's talk on ego.
When things happened, stop blaming others. Instead look into ourselves and see why it happened. When someone is sick, it's not because they are not doing Sahaja Yoga properly. When someone is down on their luck, it's not because they are not meditating properly. Stop this blaming others problem.
"Once you become a Sahaja yogi, the concern for your benevolence is all the time there. Whether you are punished or not is a different point. Some people might get a job. Some people will not get a job. With some people it will work out this way, with some people it will not work out that way. Then one may say that “How is it this Paramachaitanya is behaving like this?” It’s all for your correction. It’s a big churning; whatever works out for your correction and is for your benevolence. If you understand this point, then you’ll never be disappointed in your life. And it has no concern of its own benevolence, because it is complete benevolence itself. It never thinks how it is going to be benevolent or helpful, because it has no botheration about it." Extract from Shri Paramchaitanya Puja 1989.
Now, don't start blaming Paramchaitanya, ok?
5. Are we absorbing Shri Mataji's message?
Hello? Are you listening? It's like the message goes in one ear and out the other. Some are even better. Interpreting Shri Mataji's message to their own definition.
6. Unruly behaviour
This is new to me. That yogis behaved worst than non-yogis. Maybe some of us are not cut to be Sahaja Yogis, but just stayed in Sahaja Yoga because of the nice vibrations? I don't know. But sometimes I feel unruly behaviour should be eliminated. Treat others nicely. Not shout at them. Stop suspecting everyone or think everyone is doing something wrong. Start looking at ourselves and see if we are doing anything right. No need to yell. No need to be in anger all the time. No need to treat everyone as if they are your enemies. There is no need to discuss anything. Stop judging.
7. Where's the love?
So much of hatred. So much of negative attention. Where's the love, peeps? Shri Mataji loved us so much and yet we can't love one another.
Do you still have it? If you still do, like me, then it's time to shoebeat this problem. Because from my own witness, when the anger gets out of control, then we failed to react rationally. And then the problem becomes worse. Words get thrown out. Hurtful words which cannot be reversed.
9. Shri Mataji's ashram
It's a place for all yogis. Not just you and me. And not those who found the place. And not those who are living in the place. It's for everyone. So, don't start claiming your rights on it. Again ego play.
10. Meditate, meditate, meditate
In these difficult and challenging times, do listen more to Shri Mataji's talk or read the articles in Amruta. If yogis are fighting with yogis, then I guess we are not cut to enter the Kingdom of God. So, if anyone is angry towards you, be a witness. God knows. Karma knows. If you think you did something wrong, then change. Meditate and be balance. The most important thing to do now is to be connected with the Divine power that created us. And that's the most fundamental thing that we always forget. It's only through meditation that we get the answers and vibrations. Whether it's true or not, it will be shown.
First of all, I must praise all Jabatan Imigresen Malaysia's staff at Kelana Jaya branch. Good service with a smile and super efficient. Thank you very much!
This morning we left the house at 7am. Plaza Glomac is not very far from our house. We reached at 7.30am and found there was already a queue. Hubby quickly went to queue while I went to park the car. There were plenty of parking spaces and within walking distance.
The JIM office at Kelana Jaya branch is very, very small. There are only 10 counters, Counter 4-5 serves only senior citizens and children while Counter 6-10 was for the rest of us. Counter 1 and 2 were for collection of passport while Counter 3 is cashier.
When the doors open at 7.30am sharp, the security guard will pass you the application form which is half of an A4 paper. The info required is just Name, Address, Phone number, Email address, IC no, Sex and marital status. He then informed us to fill it up and get ready with the IC. Upon reaching the number counter, the officer checked our IC to see if we are seniors or not and gave the number accordingly. I was number 18. Not too bad right? Maybe it's a week day.
When my number was called, I handed over my old passport, IC and the form. The officer would then ask you to face the camera, a device which is fixed at the side of each cubicle. A word of reminder, please wear dark clothes. If not, they will ask you to wear one of their coats hanging on the rack.
I was instucted to remove my glasses before photo was taken. Hair must be behind ears and does not cover the forehead. Also, hair should not be messy. I was at Counter 10 and there was a small mirror for me to check myself. Other counters no mirror.
Once photo is taken, officer will ask you to check if it's ok. Then digitally verify your left and right thumb print and then sign on a printed form and put right thumb print in ink. And that was it.
In another 15 minutes, number was called again to pay. Currently there is a discount. 5 years is RM200 for adults while senior and children is RM100.
The whole process from queuing to payment only takes 30 minutes.
Upon payment a receipt will be issue and you will be told to come back in an hour's time to collect.
Take this time to have a hearty breakfast and when an hour is up, pass the receipt to the officer at Counter 1 or 2. Your name will be called and new passport will be given to you. That's it! Whole process was 1.5 hours. Parking was RM3.20.
Here is what you need to prepare prior to the visit to JIM:
There are lots to write and not limited to a certain subject. So, this is going to be a post of all my recent thoughts.
Instincts / Intuition / Sixth Sense
From young, I have a very strong sixth sense. I didn't know what it was until I read about it when I was in my teens. I can't remember much of how my sixth sense worked, but here's one that I can remember:
I was 18 or 19 years old. I was hanging wet clothes to dry on the line in my backyard. Suddenly I was reminded of a friend, John. We hardly meet and not very close. And yet all of a sudden, I thought of him. And seconds later, a red Proton Satria droved by. Then I realised, John drives one. Although that was not John in the car, but to have a sixth sense that something going to happen, weird in all ways, but true.
Many times my sixth sense worked in a strange way, not always bad, not always good but not extreme like some others. There are also many times I have a dejavu. Like for example, I saw something in my dream and it happened in real life, exactly like in the dream. Sometimes it's so useless that I can only see it happened, but nothing to do to change it.
After Sahaj, I thought maybe I am too right-sided to have all these things. But it still happened.
Last Saturday, after leaving the centre, while waiting for a Sahaj brother and hubby to throw rubbish, I was waiting near the car. It was quiet although opposite of a restaurant. I was having my new sling handbag and all of a sudden, I have a very bad feeling.
I had a feeling that I was in danger and that my bag could be snatched easily as I was alone in a quiet and dark place.
They came back and we got into the car and nothing happened, though while trying to take out my sling bag, my mangalsutra came out. So we got home safe and sound.
But when I opened Facebook and Whatsapp, found that one Sahaj brother got slashed and was bleeding profusely. He was trying to protect his wife when the snatch thieves tried to steal her bag, right in front of our centre, just after we left. He punched the snatchers (2 of them on a bike) and one slashed him badly. He was hospitalised and had surgery. The cut was deep but he is fine now.
See, these feelings are real. But there's nothing I could do to change things. It was like useless, sometimes disappointing. Sometimes it's better not to know.
Sometimes I wish they can be useful. Like to know something in the future, say, better luck in the future or financially well, you know what I mean? Then again, that's futuristic.
Year of the my zodiac
So I have been told that this year is not a good year for me. According to my mom, I should wear colors that are good for me and avoid bad luck colors.
According to my this year's Chinese horoscope, the year is indeed not a smooth year. In order to prevent bad things from happening, I was advised to be humble, down-to-earth and not get into a fight with anybody, be patient and well-manners. Even if there are anything that I disagreed, it is better to keep quiet than to raise a point as the outcome will turn out bad. In other words, don't be egoistical. This year is a year that doesn't go well and doesn't side with me. Weird that although it's my zodiac year, it is bad for me.
Since coming to Sahaj, I don't really believe in horoscope so much. But sometimes it'a nice to read. Sometimes it's good to know.
Like for example, isn't it a good idea to be humble, down-to-earth, be patient and all that? That's good moral behaviour and Shri Mataji has spoken so much about it. Positive attitude attracts positive energy.
I do believe that this year is not going to be a smooth year entirely. Maybe influence by the horoscope. Maybe it's my own instincts again.
I find that it's very easy to have people mess up with me. When driving on the road, there are more incidents in which other cars would suddenly come into your way and you have to be really careful and give way to them to avoid accident. When in the office, nothing seems to be going my way and everything is stuck somewhere. When at home, so far walking on eggshells.
So, it's good to be patient. It's good to be well-mannered to all. It's good to be humble. It's good to surrender the ego.
It's probably a year of tests for me, but it's ok. It will be better for my agnya.
Marriage and daily muse
Our marriage hasn't been easy. But it's not because of internal problems. Our relationship is good and getting stronger. It's external, coming from bureaucracy, red tape, opinions, judgments, etc.
Malaysian Immigration is not making things easier for us. Though we manage to get the visa, but it's only for a year.
The latest thing we want to do to make our marriage a truly Malaysian way, is for him to convert his driving license to a Malaysian license. Prior to this, what I understand is that it's a very simple process. But I just read that it's not as easy as I thought. Application is easy but approval may take time and may not be given. We have just started the process of translating the document and coming up visit is to get the endorsement from the China Embassy.
Many things also due to his past conditionings that is making things difficult when we get married. To get past it, need a lot of time and courage and strength and love and encouragement.
Before Sahaj, he led a simple life. He came from a very conditioned family with very old fashion ideas. Being the youngest, he followed whatever the parents told. He thought he will just marry someone at his own city or country and bring her back to his home to live with his family, just like any Chinese men. But a Sahaj marriage is different. He married a Malaysian who can't speak or read or write Mandarin and having grown up in China, his English is poor. Good thing is we both can communicate in Cantonese.
After marriage, I couldn't get a job in China. I found that if you don't know Chinese, accountancy or finance background will not bring you near China. For IT industry, it's OK. But not Finance. You need to know how the Chinese accounting works. Do you know what's a balance sheet or income statement call in China? Do you even know the accountancy laws in China? Tough.
Since I can't get a job in China, we both checked vibes and it was cooler for us to move to Malaysia.
So he migrated to Malaysia, frowned upon by his relatives and friends. But he sacrificed his mundane life to be with me.
He has to learn English from scratch. He has to learn how to drive. For our age, it's not easy to learn something new and for him, coming from a deeply conditioned family, it's not easy to break away from the conditioning.
But he did.
Though our marriage was blessed by Shri Mataji and by Sahaja Yogis, many family and friends don't understand why we ended up together in the first place. Many non-yogis asked me why I chose him as my husband. I replied, "Because he is a good man."
But of course, the struggles are real. He got a job but pays lower than his job in China. But we manages.
That being said, Sahaj marriage is not always all rainbows and flowers and fragrance and sweetness. Sometimes there are bitterness, sometimes there are storms, sometimes there are torns, sometimes it stinks. But because of all these obstacles, it made the marriage stronger. Just don't give up. And if both of us meditate together and clear together and surrender our hearts to Shri Mataji and Her alone, then things do work out. Spiritually we are one. In fact, Sahaj marriage, made us spiritually stronger.
In this Kali Yuga, the fight is real and very challenging. No joke about this. Whether for yuvas, whether for adults like us, the fight is there. But I have a feeling, a very good feeling that things will fall into place this year. What exactly I do not know, but things are going to be ok.
When we got married, we were told that our kundalinis were tied together, for 7 lifetimes. In fact, I actually felt our kundalinis got tied together. There was a rush of vibrations, coming from my kundalini and encircling my body, covering all the chakras from Mooladhara to Sahasrara. This was when he tied the mangalsutra on me.
After marriage, there were hints that our kundalini were tied. But since it can't be seen with our naked eyes, I often forgot about this.
One time, right after our Sahaj wedding in Cabella, we were back at his house in Foshan. As the house was still being renovated for our China wedding, tools were all over the place, wall half painted, paints were everywhere and everywhere was covered with dust. His room, where the altar was kept can't be use as it is all covered with plastic for the paint job. And the best part was there was no electricity as some of the lights were not fixed yet.
It was about midnight when we arrived at his house. We had just came back from Cabella and wanted to find a place to meditate and footsoak. The house was not ready for accommodation and we were staying at a nearby hotel. Since it was a hassle to bring the whole altar and all the footsoak buckets to the hotel as we were really tired having flew from Malpensa to Beijing, from Beijing to Hong Kong and finally a bus from Hong Kong to Guangzhou.
Together we decided to put Shri Mataji's photo on the kitchen stove and just meditate and footsoak there. The place that we chose were actually not ideal but it's the only place that renovations has been completed. The photo was facing the bathroom and toilet. The kitchen is very small but we managed in the dark, with just the candle to brighten the place.
You won't believe the amazing vibrations that emitted. We pulled our ears for the unfavourable environment, but Divine knows better. When both of us puts our hearts together, vibrations flow and things worked out.
After 3 years of marriage, we started to take things for granted. Since we were seeing each other everyday and night, we just do our own things most of the time, including meditation. Sure we meditated together, but he does his own clearing and meditation while I do mine.
But recently, I felt the strong connection between us. It's simply an amazing story that needs to be shared.
Driving Test Maya
Hubby has motorcycle license but not car. After marriage, he decided to get a car driving license for our convenience. There were so many tests that he needed to sit and after each test, he has to wait for a month before he can sit for the next. He was given 3 years time to complete the whole thing.
Time passes and it was time for him to migrate to Malaysia. He was left with 2 more tests to go, i.e on-the-road test and written test. He needs to pass the on-the-road test before sitting for the written test. However, there was always a maya. He went back twice to China and failed both times.
After the last time, we were determined to just forget about the whole thing. But he changed his mind and decided not to give up.
So, off he went this January with a one-way ticket. January was the due date for the whole driving test. If he fails this time, he has to start from scratch, which will be a hassle.
The on-the-road test was different from the one here in Malaysia, especially the practice time. In Malaysia, a person must complete at least 16 hours of practical lessons before he can sit for the test. In China, a person only need to go for 2-3 hours of lesson before the test. And the lesson is either on the day of the test or before. If you want extra lessons, get it from a private instructor.
So obviously, the stress was there. Hubby never got the chance to drive in China or Malaysia to practise. It's quite impossible to pass the test with just 2-3 hours of lessons.
Anyhow, this time was his last chance. We decided to do all our Sahaj homework and then surrender the results to the Divine. This time we footsoaked together, meditated together, recited mantra together, and prayed together. Yes, I have to admit, it was different from the other times that he went back to China.
On the day of the test, I could feel his nervousness. Started having gastric pain and heartburn, which was unusual for me. I knew deep inside, that that was his emotions.
So this time, I did something out of the ordinary. I stopped work and prayed to Shri Mataji. I have a small photo of Shri Mataji on my desk. I did the normal raising kundalini and bandhan with my attention (so that colleagues don't feel strange) and meditated. I cleared my nabhi which was acting up and void too. 'Shri Mataji, please give him strength and courage to pass his test.' 'Shri Mataji, please let him be his own guru.' Shri Mataji, please remove all the obstacles that is preventing him from passing the test.'
And then my nabhi calmed down and I was in deep meditation. I could not close my eyes as I was still at my workplace but I could feel a sense of peace and comfort and vibrations. 'Shri Mataji, please send these beautiful vibrations to hubby.' 'Shri Mataij, please calm him and remove his nervousness.'
And voila, he passed!
I have forgotten that we were connected eventhough we were miles apart. By doing this prayer, our kundalini spontaneously re-connected again and he told me he felt calmer this time. I told him I could feel him.
And then the same thing happened for his written test and 100% passes.
Many times, there is this connection but I have often forgotten about it. When he is down and unhappy, I could sense something is wrong even if he doesn't want to tell me. When I became too right-sided, he immediately became too left-sided and it's a sign for us to clear. When he can't sleep at night, I too can't sleep at night. I could sense the stress and trouble.
I am not sure if he could sense the same from me. I guess only the shakti has this power to share with the hubby, the power to give strength to the hubby and the power to understand and give him compassion.
Found this prayer on Facebook and thought it's really beautiful and forgiving. Here, it's customize for Malaysia.
Shri Mataji, please forgive all wrong things that my country men have done in this country.
Shri Mataji, please forgive all the Sahaja Yogis for their ignorance, aggression and lack of compassion and forgiveness.
Shri Mataji, please forgive all the Sahaja Yogis who have done wrong.
Shri Mataji, please forgive all wrongdoings done by my ancestors.
Shri Mataji, please undo all evil that men have done.
Lastly, Shri Mataji, please forgive me for all mistakes committed knowingly or unknowingly.
And saw this from WhatsApp group :
There are four yugas widely accepted in Hinduism. They are: 1. Satya yug 2. Treta yug (Ramayana) 3. Dwapara yug (Mahabharata) 4. Kali yug (Present) In Satya yug, the fight was between two worlds. (Devalok and Asura lok) Asura lok being the evil was a different WORLD. In Treta yug, the fight was between Rama and Ravana. Both rulers from two different COUNTRIES. In Dwapara yug, the fight was between Pandavas and Kauravas. Both good and evil from the SAME FAMILY. Kindly note how the evil is getting closer. For example, from a DIFFERENT WORLD to a DIFFERENT COUNTRY to the SAME FAMILY. Now, know where is the evil in Kali yug? It is inside us. Both GOOD AND EVIL LIVE WITHIN. The battle is within us. Who will we give victory to....our inner goodness or the evil within?
Something for us to ponder for the weekend. Happy Weekend before the CNY!