Monday, September 29, 2014

Vashi 2015?

Maybe.  Will just plan and see what Divine has in store for me.

This reminded me of my first journey alone to India.  To this day, I am still amazed at the courage that I have gathered at that time.

With no Hindi and yet arrived at Mumbai midnight.  My parents didn't know I went alone.  I didn't tell them even until now.  Vashi hospital has arranged a taxi for me.  But I have no idea who was the driver.  

Mumbai airport was ever so busy.  So many people.  In my mind, I was asking myself, how would the driver recognise me and vice versa?  Never mind.  Just leave it to the Divine arrangement.

I have forgotten my badge and only have my tiny little pendant of Shri Mataji.  I was starting to feel nervous and yet being in India makes you calm immediately.

Suddenly an old man with long white beard, dressed all in white but crumpled and dirty clothes and with a turban came to me.  He was holding Shri Mataji's photo.  Phew.  I still didn't know how he has spotted me, because I would never have seen him in the crowd.  He looked tired and stern and was signalling me to follow him.  Not a word of English.  And I followed.  

At first I was thinking, should I trust this guy?  And boy, he just took my luggage and walked extremely fast and I almost lost him and my luggage!  But I managed to trace him and he chugged my luggage on top of his taxi and tied it up and I got into the taxi and I asked him again, Sahaja Yoga?  Vashi?  No reply.

And off he drove and cursed at the other drivers.

Inside the taxi, I was afraid to move as he drove into the traffic.  Mumbai is ever famous for traffic and yes, traffic jam at 1am.  And the ever-non-stop honking.  And the way they drove, salute!

Then as he drove out of the traffic and into a more straight forward, quiet road, I began to ease, though I should be more tensed.  I began to enjoy the journey.

In my heart, I really hope he was bringing me to the right place.  Here was I, in a taxi, with an unknown man, on an unfamiliar road and I was feeling happy.  I don't know why.

After about an hour, we reached Vashi.  The moment I saw the word, 'International Sahaja Yoga Health Centre', I breathed a sigh of relief.  Finally, Divine brought me here.  All my worries was for nothing.  

This is after all a spiritual land, India.

Till this day, when I told my friends that I went to India alone, traveled in a taxi with a stranger as the driver at midnight, they still told me off.  Not safe for a woman.

Divine protected me and was helping me throughout.

Friday, September 26, 2014

The power of a rakhi string

A simple gesture of tying a rakhi string can mend relationships.  Enough said.

Monday, September 22, 2014

A test for all of us

Disclaimer: This is merely my personal opinion and have no intention to hurt or critize anyone.

I have finally understood the very subtle meaning of collectivity.  Thank You for opening my ears and eyes.  Thank You for telling me to be patient and witness the drama and maya surrounding me.  It was only through this detachment, I was able to understand fully.

I can see that many people has misunderstood the word "Collective".  I can also understand, that despite the many speeches and talks throughout the years, if one take it literally, one may not be able to grasp the full message.  Because the messages are very subtle.

As much as I want to tell the rest of the world, what I feel and what I know, I guess it's best that they find it out themselves.  Sometimes talking too much doesn't help anybody, something that I have experienced in the past.  Also, it doesn't help my ego.

When someone told me off for missing few collectives, I began to wonder.  Does coming to collective often, makes one more collective?  When I see someone who seldom go to collective, but a much deeper yogi and so much wiser than those who does, what does this tell me?  Don't get me wrong.  I am not advocating people not to go collective so often.  It's a very subtle message.

Being collective is right there in the heart.  But coming to collective and then disagreeing every single thing there, doesn't make one collective at all.

Same thing as it doesn't mean that by giving lots of self-realisation, makes you a very good yogi.  It's really subtle.  

I have seen people who are very collective and a collective which is very united.  They do everything together.  They partied together.  They sing together.  They welcome everyone.  That's what collective is.  And what beautiful vibrations.  

Collective is not about coming every week and then not participating or disagreeing with everyone else or the procedures or decorations or anything at all or complaining and gossiping about others or bragging about the SR programs that you did.

What I am trying to say is, it's right there in the heart.  Have a good heart.  But it doesn't work if you are the only one having a good heart and trying to implement things or change things.  It must be the whole collective.  Everyone should have a good heart in order to have a strong collective.  

What it means is that we witness and not complain about the things that others have done.  That we introspect our weaknesses and pray for change.  That we forgive others before we are forgiven.  That we treat everyone else truly as our brothers and sisters and not just merely words.  That we are compassionate towards others.  That we don't judge our brothers and sisters vibrationally or not.  That we accept and love everyone despite their shortcomings.  That if others are not willing to forgive and forget, you are able to be detached and treat them all with love.  That's what collective is and should be.

To change this, it has to start from ourselves.  Individually.  And come to the collective and see if we can influence others to do the same.  If we have ego, then surrender.  If not, we just continue to witness and pray to Shri Mataji.  She knows best.

I guess the main problem is that we have too big of a ego.  That we think we are the best.  When we are not.

Friday, September 12, 2014

Thursday, September 04, 2014

Positive happenings

Day in, day out, we are always faced with so many challenges in life.  And many people are increasingly unhappy and irritated with life and whatever that is thrown to them.

Take me as an example.  The weekend started off with positive vibes.  Attended Shri Ganesha Puja at the centre and felt joyful.  Amazingly, Shri Ganesha's quality, which is purity and innocence can be felt throughout the puja.  Though there were people complaining about our new bhajan group location, I was happy about it.  In fact, I felt very comfortable sitting there compared to the previous place.  The vibrations of the puja were there right from the beginning, even before puja started.

As usual, the organisers tried to outdo the previous organisers by being unique by having new procedures.  I could feel myself reacting and asking why was that needed when Shri Mataji was already there, but I stopped my thoughts there and then.  I told myself, enough.  Just enjoy the puja without these reactions.  I truly believe, it is the positive vibes that made me do so.

The next day, we also spent some time with yogis.  The conversations we had, the food we ate, the things we did, were all done with an open heart.  Everything was so spontaneous and nobody was looking at the time.  We were like in a time capsule where time stood still, but everything around us moves.  Again, amazing companionship, beautiful vibrations.

The day after, again we spent some time with yogis, by celebrating birthdays together.  Again, delicious food, amazing conversations and great company.

Spending 3 days straight with yogis had definitely increase my own vibrations.  That night, our meditation were very deep and the vibrations were circling around us.  I believe it was the positive vibes.

Then back to work.  Every morning while driving to work, I will pray that my positive vibes can emit and influence the others and not let their negative vibes affect me, especially after what happened last Friday at work.  You see, there are a lot of negative energy at my workplace.  I am not sure whether other companies are the same, but here, especially the top management, are generally unhappy, doesn't like to bear responsibilities, being poor leaders, can't communicate well and can't make decisions.  When top management are negative, their negative vibes spreads downwards.  No matter how positive the subordinates are, if the top people are hindering progress, there's nothing much we could do, except to follow suit.  Very, very toxic environment.

The first day at work after the long weekend was good.  Uneventful.  One of my colleagues, Kavita, had just moved into her new house and offered everyone a doughnut to bless her and her family at their new home.  That was very sweet of her and I thought that was a great idea.  Very generous of her.

The next day, I woke up late.  I made lunch and by the time I had bathed, I realised there was not enough time to meditate.  I told hubby that I hope everything will be well at work because in the past experience, whenever I don't meditate, I was not able to sustain the vibes and bad things happened.  Hubby told me to take a lime to work, but I said no, stubbornly.  I think lime can only prevent bhoots, but not negative emotions.  Driving to work that day, I recited Shri Ganesha Atharva Sheersha and tried hard to remain calm and collected.

Throughout that day, I felt very irritated and annoyed. I felt as if everyone else is against me that day.  Students walked past and knocked me.  Manager spoke rudely.  Poor communication between managers and staff.  And end of the day, poor communication at home.  Hubby informed me to pick him and mom up from work.  Dad informed mom that he is picking them up from work.  Hubby did not informed mom and vice versa.  Both me and my dad went to pick them up.  Of course, I was irritated till no end as going to their place has more traffic compared to going straight home.

In the end, I felt all the positive vibes that I have gathered during the weekend has subsided completely and the negative has taken over.  Hubby and I discussed during meditation and we need to come up with a plan, both of us together.  We felt that if both of us meditate longer, morning and evening, with proper attention and not mechanically, things will go well.  Right now, we both felt nothing is going right in our lives.  We are going to try sleeping earlier.  We are going to try waking up earlier.  Hubby came up with an idea, to write down our daily achievements.  Good idea!

So, today, we are moving back to positivity.  Enough of the negative emotions.

And starting from today, I am going to list 3 positive happenings on a daily basis, for 5 days.  This is part of a chain that has been going on, about spreading positive vibes.  I am supposed to tag 3 person on a daily basis to do it.

So, do the same wherever you are.  Post 3 positive happenings daily on Facebook.  Spread the positive vibes.  Encourage others to do the same.  The more positive vibes, the better the environment and surrounding.

Sharing with you some photos from Shri Krishna Puja 2 weeks ago and the rakhi gifts that I got from my brothers.

Monday, September 01, 2014

Beautiful Shri Ganesha

We had a beautiful Shri Ganesha Puja on Saturday and then yesterday, a Sahaj sister taught us to make little Shri Ganesha from clay.  What a beautiful experience it was.

We used terracota clay to make.  Our attention throughout this process were so good and the vibrations around us were so amazing.

And then together at a yogi's house, we watched the weddings live from Cabella.  It was midnight here, but daytime there.  So much of vibrations.  I was remisnicing my experience then.  We felt so joyful just watching the smiling faces of the brides and grooms.  So much in bliss.

We were truly drenched with vibrations and didn't want to leave although it was already 2am.  So much so, today I wanted to write about the whole Sahaj wedding ceremony.  But I realised that it could be too sensitive for the public.  So, it's in my draft now.  Maybe I will create a private blog to post this up.  Maybe not.

We love Sahaja Yogis company.  So much of joyful, so spontaneous, so comfortable.  There's no ego.  There's no hatred.  There's no anger.  Just us and vibrations.

Next project, hopefully to make a bigger clay Shri Ganesha for the altar.  This time with details, like fingers and toes.  Yup!

Jai Shri Ganesha!

And this marks our 3rd year together.  It has been a blissful marriage.  Lots to learn from one another.  If at anytime he is not balance, I will know it immediately and vice versa.  If one day I become too right-sided, he will be come too left-sided and we have to quickly acknowledge this and clear together.  That's how amazing Sahaj marriage is.  May God bless us with many more blissful years to come.  Thank You Shri Mataji for this amazing lifetime experience.


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