Is it time to quit?

It's been 5 years since I stepped into this organisation.  As I joked with my colleagues this morning and reminisced the time I agreed to join this organisation, I told them I was conned during interview.

During interview, my interviewers who were my current boss, big boss and HR manager, asked whether I have any questions.  I asked whether we get spectacle allowance.  Both the bosses said yes that as staff, we get discounts at selected optometrist.  

The first day at work, I checked on our intranet HR site and found that there was no selected optometrist in which staff get discounts.  In fact, the discounts and promotions were dependent on the individual shops.  It's not fixed.  Tricked into joining.

Working here haven't been fun.  Though the colleagues were great but I cannot say the same about the bosses.

First year was tough as my current boss tried to show who's boss.  Obviously she is the boss but she still insisted on showing her bossiness.  My opinions were thrown aside.  My ideas were not taken up.  She doesn't want to teach me much and was pretty afraid I will take over her post.  She was too into the old ways of doing things that there was no way she can change just because I joined.  I took the whole year to understand her.  Sometimes I wondered why I was hired if she was so worried that I will climb over her.

Second year onwards things began to settle down.  I kinda understand the whole work flow and the people I was working with.  Built better relationships with my subordinates and know how to coordinate with my boss.

Fourth year, which was last year, hit a snag.  My portfolio changed and I was excited about it.  Unfortunately, it was just a shadow.  None of the bosses knew what I was supposed to do although they created a new portfolio for me.  Another subordinate was hired.  My career came to a stop.  I wasn't learning anything new.  Neither was I building my career for the better.  My new senior subordinate needed to be spoon-fed every single detail while my boss thought I performed badly at my new job.  Meantime, my boss and my subordinate have great respect for each other, but I lost respect for them.

On 4th January 2015, I started the 5th year.  I get 20 days annual leave now.  But deep inside, the feeling to quit is strong.  I know in the end Shri Mataji is the doer and enjoyer and that I should surrender whatever outcome to her.  Saw this post on Forbes and began to wonder:

You lack passion. “You’re not waking up most mornings with a feeling of excitement towards your job,” Hockett says. That feeling you had when you first started working there–thinking about all the possibilities and contributions ahead with a sense of glee—is gone.

This was exactly how I felt each morning.  While meditating, I have to pray every single day to let this day be a good working day.  My boss' behaviour has turn to a worse.  Her temper is unpredictable and she can be on a bad mood everyday.  I don't look forward to going to work and trying to see or predict when is her happy mood.

You’re miserable every morning. Quite simply, you dread going into work, Sutton Fell says.

Same as above.

 Your company is sinking. There’s no need to go down with this ship, Taylor says. “Put on your life preserver and get in the water.”

In my case, the organisation is flourishing.  New building is coming up and very quickly we will be refurbishing our department as we get bigger space, etc.  It's not sinking.

You really dislike the people you work with and/or your boss. You can try to work out the problems you’re having with colleagues or your manager—but know that sometimes they’re not fixable.

Yes, because of the poor system here, no one seems to know what we are supposed to do.  It's like the blind leading the blind.  Things are last minute when things could have been completed way before the deadline.  The bosses like to keep things to the last minute and I have no idea why is that so.  The system is so badly designed that humans have to make up for all the things the system can't do.  My new subordinate is such a baby that he needs to be spoon-fed.  Luckily I don't have to change his diaper too.  If I don't push him, he won't tell me his progress.  And delaying things.  Even simple Excel he cannot do.  Yes, a senior.

You’re consistently stressed, negative, and/or unhappy at work. If you get anxious or unhappy just thinking about work, that’s a good sign that it’s time to move on, Sutton Fell says.


Your work-related stress is affecting your physical health. “The work, people, or culture is unhealthy, and it has a negative impact on you physically and mentally,” Hockett says. “The stress is present both inside and outside of work; it’s consuming. Your family and friends are affected by this, too.” Taylor says when work starts affecting your health–physical, mental, or both–it’s time to get out.

Yes.  Thank God for Sahaja Yoga.

You don’t fit in with the corporate culture and/or you don’t believe in the company anymore. “You feel that there are ethical or moral differences in how the company and you believe the firm should operate; cultural differences; work ethic clashes, and so on,” Taylor says. Whatever the issue, you’re morally misaligned with your employer, and it’s an uncomfortable workplace setting.

Yes, especially since that incident which I was the whistle blower.  

Your work performance is suffering. If you’re no longer productive at work, even though you’re capable of performing the task(s), you might want to start looking for new work, Hockett says.

SOOOOO yes!  I don't really know what I am doing now.  Compiling info into Excel sheet?  Really?

You no longer have good work-life balance. When you find that you’re spending less time with your family because of work, or you cannot commit the necessary time to your job, you should consider looking elsewhere, Sutton Fell says.

Not really.  I still get weekends off and manage to go home by 7pm.  But it's the traffic jam that sucks.

Your skills are not being tapped. Management doesn’t acknowledge that you have more to offer than what you’ve been contributing for a significant amount of time, you’ve been passed over for promotion, or attempts to take on more challenging assignments have failed, Taylor says. “No one has said anything, however, you are no longer getting the plum assignments, you are no longer asked to attend key meetings, or your proposals are met with silence or denial,” Hockett adds. “These are signs that you should be looking for a new opportunity.”

Yes and no.  I have took up a challenging portfolio but not performing well due to poor system and organisation.  During our performance review, my boss asked me what I would like to do and I said anything.  Looks like I also made a mistake here.

Your job duties have changed/increased, but the pay hasn’t. Sometimes there’s a good reason for this—but Sutton Fell says it’s usually a sign you should go. “When downsizing has moved your team into double time, but certainly nowhere near double compensation, it may be time to move on,” Taylor says. That’s especially true if the company is performing well, but it’s not reflected in your salary or other rewards.

Yup!  So true.  With GST coming, it's even worse.

Your ideas are not being heard. If your ideas are no longer heard or valued; you can’t seem to get time with the ‘powers that be’; or you cannot get approvals or acknowledgment for great work, think about finding a new job, Taylor says.

This was there from Day 1.  

You’re bored and stagnating at your job. If you’re not growing or learning anything new, it might be time to leave, Sutton Fell says. Hockett and Kahn agree. They say when you’ve outgrown the position and there is no opportunity for advancement–or you seem to work the same job day in, day out without any opportunity for growth, even though you crave more–it’s time to get out.

I don't really mind being bored at work.  But yeah compiling info into Excel can be a dread.  Good thing is we can go onto the net and surf and watch some YouTube or Facebook.  But I am stagnated at work.  

You are experiencing verbal abuse, sexual harassment, or are aware of any type of other illegal behavior.  If you’re the victim of bullying, sexual harassment or other egregious behavior, you should certainly keep an eye out for other positions, regardless of what corrective measures you’re taking, Taylor says.

Verbal abuse yes.  Sarcastic remark yes.  Rude manners yes.  

Out of 14, 12 are met.  So, what's my decision now?  Resume sent.  Job applied.  Now it's up to Divine.