Time for an update!


I have been long missing, almost a month from this blog.  Well, ever since I had the iPad, I find updating this blog is not easy using iPad, compare to using a PC.  Guess it's not the same to type with a screen keyboard.  It's the touching of the keyboard that makes typing faster.  And since I am using the iPad more, I hardly on my laptop anymore.  And it's so busy at work, that updating anything is difficult!

Well, I went for surgery to remove my piles and it's just past one month.  I would like to share my experience that I had before the surgery.  A very comforting kind of experience.  

It was an emergency situation.  I was in great pain, till I was unable to walk.  I went to see a specialist and long story cut short, he suggested surgery to relieve my pain.  I said yes, and the rest was history.

Since I had such a short time to inform yogis, I only managed to inform 2 yogis to bandhan for me.  But mentally I was very worried, because I felt I didn't have yogi support.  I gave myself a bandhan for everything to be smooth, but still in my mind, that was not enough.  I didn't want to send email to the whole collective as I was too shy due to the nature of the surgery.

As they wheeled me into the waiting room, while waiting for the operation theater to be ready, I felt very much alone.  Due to the urgency of the surgery, the surgeon had to do the surgery in the evening and my family could not wait for me to come out of the OT and they have gone home because it was already late.

As I lay down there alone, I was shivering.  I wasn't sure whether it was the pain, the cold or the fear.  At that moment, I prayed that everything will go well, that the surgery will be smooth, that the pain will be reduced, that I will be normal once again.  Within seconds, I felt a warm sensation inside me, that stopped the shivering.  I felt comforted and I felt Shri Mataji's presence there with me, in my heart.  

Soon, many nurses, surgeon assistants (I don't know what they are called), and even my own surgeon, came and comforted me.  All of them came and chatted with me, assured me that this is going to be fast and everything will be OK.  

I have been into surgeries before, and this is the first time I felt comforted this way.  Soon after that, I wasn't  alone anymore.  In fact, I felt Shri Mataji was watching every single move, guiding the surgeons and the nurses.

The surgery went well, I was out, taken care of, hospitalised for 3 days and rested at home for 3 weeks.  There were a lot of discomfort here and there, and day in day out I was just praying to be normal once again.

Anyhow, it's already past one month and today I can tell that I am 80% normal.  

The purpose of sharing this story is, sometimes our mind tell us that the quantity of bandhan is what matters.  I feel it's the quality of the bandhan that matters.  Whether it was 2 people, or 100 people bandhan, if we do it from the heart, pray to God from the heart, Divine hear us and work things out for us.  It's the matter of the heart.

Now I know, that all of us do have this power, as told by our Divine Mother.  If only we put our heart into it, it will happen.  Shri Mataji is always there for us, comforting us, loving us, embracing us.

My next post, I will talk into detail of the post-surgery recovery, Sahaj and non-Sahaj method.

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