Jai Jai Jai Shri Mataji

"In Emotion, you should be bubbling with Joy.  In Action, you should be Thoughtless.  In Ascent, you should be Surrendered." - Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi There are many people who think that the longer you practice Sahaja Yoga, the better you become.  But I disagreed.  Time has nothing to do with ascent.  Although I have practiced for 10 years, I don't think I have reach that level yet.  There's still a lot that I don't know and still a lot of test especially ego.   I met someone who just practice for 2 years and he is already more surrendered than I am.   I feel the longer you practice, yes, you gain more knowledge and experience.  But to ascent, the only way to do it is to surrender and that really depends on individual.  How deep can you get?   So, meditate, introspect and surrender.  That's the best way to ascent and grow deeper in Sahaja Yoga.

Thank you everyone for visiting this blog.  It just came to my attention that the statistics has reached 10,000++.  It's not much compare to others.  But I do appreciate your coming to my blog, reading my personal experiences and some of Shri Mataji's excerpts.   I will keep this blog going as my journey is now getting more interesting.  Would like to continue to share this beautiful journey with everyone.

Recently, my mind has been exercising a lot.  If my body exercised the same amount as my mind, I would have lost a lot of weight by now. Wondered sometimes, if someone said something nice and praised us, our mind feels happy about it, is that Ego? When we are happy, our face brighten up and everyone can see the glow, but the happy thoughts came from being impressed by someone, is that Ego? For many years, I have a huge problem with Ego and sometimes it happened so quickly that I don't even notice it.  But lately, the ego got blown.  Suddenly everything changes, beyond the expectations of anyone.  In the long run, 50% of the ego will disappear (as I was told), but the heart is a bit hesitant.  Is it worth it?  It's a huge move and the future is unknown.  It's all very new to me and no matter how hard I tried not to think of the future, I still can't help it.  It is now reaching a point that I want to again run away from it all.  Avoid the people.  Stay at

Facebook is banned in China, do you know that? A friend of a Chinese friend in China managed to hack into my Facebook profile, took my photos and emailed to my friend in China.  Confusing?  A is a friend of B and A hacked into FB and took my photos and gave it to B and B sent it to me.  I was shocked!!! I have already set privacy settings in FB that I only allowed my friends on FB to view my photos.  Even friends of friends cannot view.  And moreover, those photos that other people tagged me are not allowed to be seen by even friends.  It's supposedly a very private setting and limited to my own privacy. I don't believe in privacy in internet now.  Nothing is private.  I know this blog is not private so I want to tell the rest of the world that there is no privacy in Facebook, no matter how they re-assured you that there are.

Last Saturday collective, Shri Mataji's tape on Shri Kartikeya Puja in Munich, Germany was played.  Shri Mataji said, women should be women and women should not be like men.  Shri Mataji was explaining a lot of how women should be.  The most beautiful part of the speech was, when Uncle Gregoire asked, 'what is good to be a man', because Shri Mataji was telling that men don't know a lot of things and won't do a lot of things, Shri Mataji replied, 'that without men, women cannot express themselves.  Just like the Mother Earth, flowers are the expression of Mother Earth and men are the flowers.'   Well, it's not the exact words of Shri Mataji, but that's the message. 

Everything is happening too fast.  I am not sure whether this flow of the river is going to flow deeper into the threacherous sea or just gently flow into a beautiful waterfall.  We just don't know what is in front of us.  We only know what is happening now and it's just very cool.  Maybe the sea is as calm as a cow and not as threacherous as we thought.  And maybe the waterfall is too high and filled with rocks.  We really don't know what is there waiting for us. Now and then, on and off, I will wonder, whether I am heading to the right path.  With Shri Mataji holding my hand and guiding my each step, I don't fear in my heart (not anymore) but my head is telling me to go slow.  For I take 1 step forward, and will take 3 steps backward. Seems like everything is falling into the correct places and and the vibrations on the Sahasrara proves it all.  But still, is this an illusion?  Is this a test?  Is it true that every happy moment is only temporary and will

My body is confused.  I arrived on a Tuesday and I slept pretty much on the plane knowing that I always have bad jet lag.  On Wednesday I was on leave, so I managed to catch on some sleep.  I went to work on Thursday and though there were some signs of jet lag, I still managed to get by.  Friday was a public holiday and I slept in throughout the weekend.  I thought I was fine. Until Sunday.  I had a hard time trying to sleep at 11pm and the whole night I was awake and managed to catch snippets of sleep here and there and got up at 6am.  Went to work and after lunch, the eyes will automatically be closing and the brains stopped working.  Stomach will be hungry at the wrong time and not hungry at the correct meal time. It's a very busy and crucial time at work right now, with many deadlines to meet, but I cannot focus.  Monday night I tried to sleep again but failed.  Yesterday I went back home after work and was terribly sleepy.  I was happy and thought wow, finally.  Slept

I am back from a blissful journey and having jet lag.  Anyway, here are the photos and stories. 27.08.10 (Friday) Early in the morning, my parents sent me and Gerty to LCCT airport to catch the AirAsia flight to London - Stansted.  I was very excited about going to London since this is the first time I am stepping foot in London.  I am so looking forward to scenery from Midsomer Murders.  AirAsia flies direct to London-Stansted and it was a 14 hour flight.  What I don't really like about it was, they gave us food 3 hours after take-off and 3 hours before we land, but in between 8 hours, we have no food and you have to buy snacks from them.  At the end of the 14 hour flight, everyone was super hungry and all snacks were gone.  If it is an overnight flight (like my return flight), then it's ok.  But a day time flight, well, I think AirAsia should re-consider the meals schedule time.  You can't starve your passengers and force them to buy food on the plane.  Those smart on