In the beginning, it was very tough. It took me a few years to get over it. Many times I refrained myself from talking about it because I don't want to dwell into it anymore. Thanks to Sahaja Yoga, I managed to pull myself out of it and move on with my life. Thanks to all the Sisters in Sahaj who have been very supportive in this journey.
While I have moved on, I know there are a few people who haven't. It's harder for them I suppose. I have Sahaja Yoga to pull me out. They don't. Anyway, I hope one day they will just accept it just like we did.
For me, understanding of what happened and getting the answers played a main part in the recovery process. It's just a phase of life that we all have to go through. But it's sad that after 10 years, there are some people who have yet to move on and preferred to stay that way and being fed stories after stories relating to you.
Although I have moved on with my life, I will always be reminded of what happened to you because it happened 5 days after my 21st birthday. Not only that, others remembered my birthday because of this.
If I go on about this, then I will become left-sided. Many times when I am imbalance, there will be flashbacks in my mind and it brought me back all the feelings I had at that time. Every conversation, every action. I could remember it so clearly as if it just happened yesterday. That's when I know I am not balance and will do everything I could to get back in balance.
Moving on, I have accepted it and cherished all the good memories I had. I have questioned, found the answers and now appreciating all the moments in my life. I want you to move on too because I love you and I know it is best for you.
It's very important to appreciate every single moment of our live and be thankful and grateful to be loved by so many and to be in God's embrace.